name: lez
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Okay well I didn't do anything today. I got up at 9AM to go to a dentist appointment. Blah annoying....*yawn*
And finally, here we go another part to Petals Black
Maaaaaaan. I'm tired. Um...yeah....I think i should go cuz I had no life today and no real random thoughts. OH WAIT...before I forget, the pics I got of Sugizo were all from the Japanese Channel so all creidt to them. ^^
PLUS I got new pics of Ta (and I was gonna go on a rant about him but I can't now I'm on the phone) I got all these pics of Ta from The H.5.T so all criedt to whoever posted them up.
Ta wearing Baby Blue
So damn sexy. *drool*
He's so fuckin beautiful. T.T it's like....waaahh.....
And this is just a real nice pic of Wooie So I had to share. ^_^ Okay thas all for now. Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 12:49 a.m. on Sunday, September 16, 2001
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Today I woke up and it was raining. I was like blah cuz I was also on the rag -.-;;;;;;;;;;;;; BOOOOOOOOOO. Anyway, so I was feeling kinda cruddy but I take my mom to work anywayz. I was fine until I got home. The rain was making me tired, plus I kept getting cramps. They got to be so fuckin painful I took 2 painkillers and nothing. I was like crippled. I couldn't move for like hours because I was in pain. The whole time I kept thinking GOD I WISH I WAS A BOY. I really wished that at that moment because imagine being in so much pain, that you can't even move. Needless to say, I skipped math. I was dying. Plus I was hot because my mom turned off my AC when she left like it was any of her buissness that I wanna freeze myself. So after the pain dyed down some, I tried to sleep but I kept waking up from the heat and the pain so I was like blah. Crappy morning. When the pain killers FINALLY kicked in, I already missed my math class. -.-* Faboo. That's twice this week. I don't think I should be missing that class. *coughcoughcoughthirdtimerepeatingcoughcoughcough*
Anyway when the day was nicer, and it was time, I went to pick up my mommy and I got lunch. I've been getting hooked on these, bizanging Subway turkey subs. They're SO GOOD. OMG and like a few calories so damn even better. They so good I wish I had one now. Cuz Im hungry. -.-*
Anyway I noticed for the past few entries I've been neglecting my Ta. And I haven't done it on purpose, it's that I haven't heard or seen anything new from him. I miss him a lot. *sigh* and Haido is just there a lot cuz his pictures are more new to me since I haven't seen them all and I've seen almost all of Ta's. So...you know...it's not that I love him any less, but I miss him. And he's not around. -.-* Poopies. Anyway, besides that, I'm going to pause on Haido for a quick sec, and talk about Sugizo. ^_^ My oh so yummy guitarist from Luna Sea. I was never a big, BIG fan of Luna Sea, but their song Gravity made me like them a lot. I never even saw them before I heard them so, hey. When I DID see them however, 1st person to catch my eye: Sugizo. I dunno....thigh highs, short shorts, see through shirt, pink hair good arms, abs and thighs? Good reason to catch anyones eye. So yeah, I know very little about them or whatever, I just know Sugizo is fuckin sekshii. Not Ta/Haido sekshii, but yes, sekshii. ^^
http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Subway/3124/sugi03.jpg
Sugizo in previous outfit mentioned before. See what I mean? Jus...nice....very....eye catching.
http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Subway/3124/sugi06.jpg
Sugizo in normal clothes and normal hair. I like this picture because he looks really casual yet sexy and his eye make up is nice, not too much, but enough to let you know he's got some on. And the shape of his body, the way his shirt just covers his frame is also really nice. ^_^
http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Subway/3124/sugi10.jpg
Sugizo upclose and B&W. I like this one because 1. I love B&W pics and 2. U can't even see his whole face, but you can see little somewhat blemishs on his face which I think is very real and very cool. He's got such guitarist hands though....>.< ew.
http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Subway/3124/sugi14.jpg
Sugizo in all the rock God glory. LOL. No, I like this one because of that pout. XD ah, very sexy.
http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Subway/3124/sugi16.jpg
There go those thigh highs, pink hair and short shorts again. Notice the garters....niiiiice. Like I said, eye catching.
Anyway, this just goes to show, I can appericate someone else besides Haido. I jus like Haido more cuz he's Haido and his face is prettier then Sugizo's. Plus, (as far as my knowledge) Haido don't got no damn kids. -.-* Sugizo does. A daughter named Luna. So yeah.....ew if Haido has kids, I PRAY they look like him. Otherwise them kids gonna b foogly as hell. Feel sorry for them if they do end up lookin like their momma. LOL
Anyway before I 4get:
Sparks- Part 25
I spent almost 2 hrs doing a new drawing of them 2day. I think it looks hella dope. But thas not for me to decided! LOL. *sigh* Okay, I'm off to screw around some more. *bounce* I'm all done for tonight....writing wise anyway. Weeeee~
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:04 p.m. on Friday, September 14, 2001
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Okay so...right....I was talkin to Aeris before and she gave me a link to L'arc doing a live perfomance of Spirit Dreams Inside. Which I already had but aww it was so sweet of her to think of me. ^_^ Anyway we were talking that and how Tetsu's clothes were weird, and how Yukihiro looked KAWAII in that hat thingy of his and how Haido was just a SEKSHII bitch as always. He was platinum blonde ^_^ No dreads though -.-. Anyway first things first.
1. I love to hear Haido moan. I wish I had a recording of all his moans because they are SEXY. Can a moan all by itself be sexy? Yes it can. Haido proved it.
2. In the perfomance, Haido kept saying at the end, "I'll go deep inside"....XD by all means Haido, go deep inside. Go as deep as you want and can baby XD XD XD XD
*clears throat* but I digress. *I love my Ta, I love my Ta, I love my Ta though he's being foolish right now* Anyway back to the subject at hand. I mentioned to Aeris how I HATED Haido's nasty gold pointy shoes. >.< They bothered me so much. And she sez most of Haido's shoes are pointy. And then I thought, ew, Haido must have some nasty corns then. LOL EW! He's got corns if he wears pointy shoes all the time. That's like BAD. So that kinda turned me off about Haido. LOL
YES, Petals Black will have yaoiness. I already started one. Well I finished it, I just have to do others. So yeah....when I post those I'll put a big ol warning so I don't get stupid people emailing me later about how they came across two boys touching. -.-* bah.
I always listened to Glay's Kuchibiru never knowing what Kuchibiru meant. I looked it up in my handy dandy Japanese-English Dictionary. It means Lips. Interesting....
I always heard Haido say Setsuna....I found out what that meant to. It's like moment of time.
A little ewwy spider lives in my mirror of my car. So every morning I have to get a tissue and wipe off the web it spins over my side mirror....-.-* that's the 2nd spider that took up residence in my side mirror of my car.
My new car will be a silverish gray Seibring LXi 2001. I love it already XD
I have math tomorrow...-.- bah. Damn math. Crappy. I didnt do the homework for it. I'll do it 2morrow morning as I watch Maury and Jerry Springer.
Why is a guy can get turned on by watching 2 girls go at it and it's not okay for a girl to get turned on by watching 2 guys go at it? I think that's sexist. I can get turned on by whatever I want thank you. -.-v
I miss Janie. T.T
I miss Kara too. T.T
Tell me why this one girl I know, shes like ugh...I dunno. She knows what happened in NY on Weds. And tell me why she was the only one, ONLY ONE that didn't IM me to see if I was okay. And granted, even though I was fine and whatever, everyone else, EVEN LINNA who lives in HAWAII for God's sake was the 1st one to IM me to see if I was okay. This girl I've known longer, she IMs me today. About what? Nothing. -.-* She didn't even ask how I was or nothing. No kind of fucking concern. I was pissed. What if one of my friends was there (and he was) and whatever. She didn't give a shit. She just wanted to run her mouth about some other shit about her, her, her, HER. Whatever that just pissed me off.
My friend, who's in the National Guard was activated last night and went to Manhatten tonight to help out. I was worried about him and I hope he's okay.
Because of this shit, I am forever BANNED from setting foot in NYC. -.-* Pookie thinks that's stupid. I agree.
KP called me last night around 12:30 in hystrics. He was crying about how he wanted to go home right now. I talked to Hye Sung who finally started to cave and consider going back to NY. FINALLY. Too bad I'm banned for life. -.-*
Some Down Time- Part 24
almost forgot to post.
My face broke out! *sob* That's okay. I'm fighting it. I hate breaking out. -.-* Blah. It's so vile.
Okay thas enough babble. Tee hee. ^_^ laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 09:53 p.m. on Thursday, September 13, 2001
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Yesterday after talking to my friend Pookie who was there to see what happened on Weds. I felt oddly better. Now people are gonna read this and think WTF??? But in all honesty he made good points. 1st off, I'm not gonna quote him other then this one line:
"If you can't laugh about it, can you really get over it?"
To me that made sense. And then a few minutes later he started cracking jokes about it. He asked me if it was wrong of him that he didn't care anymore. And frankly I started to think about it too. Don't get us wrong, it's sad, it's tragic it was pointless and senseless and lots of innocent people died for no reason, but the repeat news and hardly anything new coming in about what's going on, it's starting to get on my nerves. I'm thankful everyone I knew was far away from that, and I'm sure many people that have surviors there are grateful for that too. And we mourn the loss of all those people, but, man, I can't help but think that for a few weeks, this will be everyone's favorite subject, then slowly go away. It will be placed in America's greatest Tragdgy files and thas it. One day, we'll look back on this and sigh and say how sad it is. In a year, New York will go back to being New York, full of rude people, good shit to buy and expensive clothes.
Pookie was also telling me how he was 10 blocks away from everything and he took out his camara and took pictures of the burning building. And the huge dust cloud that followed after the 1st tower collapsed. Why? I don't know. He just did. And I'll have to scan them when he gets them developed.
My oppa Aries who was DAMN lucky is now in Bergen. He's fine, just a little shaken. He called KP and needless to say KP was hystrical and would have jumped the next plane back to NY if he could. More then ever, he wants to come back home now. Sunnie and his father, who haven't spoken to each other in a year, spoke yesterday. His father was fine. Shaken, but fine. Sunnie was glad. Mikey still hasn't talked to his parents. Everyone else I don't know. I have to talk to them later.
I can go on about this, and I will, but later. I have to go pick up my mom. Peace.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 03:00 p.m. on Thursday, September 13, 2001
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Almost Home, Almost Ready for a Second Round- Part 23
I can't really blog today cuz um....I have nothing to say. I stayed home and slept today. No class. I talked to my friend my Pookie. He's fine. He was only a few blocks away when it happened >.< But he's fine. My oppa Arie called me this morning and he was in Cherry Hill (another town in Jersey) because of what happened yesterday. He works in the WTC. He was late to work that morning and as he walked in the lobby that moment, the 1st plane crashed. He heard it, and he ran the fuck out. He was safe. he was fine. He got to Jersey when NY was evacuated. He's fine though.
*sigh* well I guess thas it. Peace.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:29 p.m. on Wednesday, September 12, 2001
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Okay I'm apparently doing this on a regualar now....-.-*
Well no I shouldn't say that. I may write another one if I get an idea so....yeah. Enjoy!
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:27 p.m. on Tuesday, September 11, 2001
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I was in my room. It was like....a little past 8:30 in the morning. I had just come back from taking my mom to work and I was trying to do my English homework which was reading. I was watching Maury on TV when it just finished and I was about to change the channel when all the sudden a news break comes in. I was rolling my eyes thinking "Oh God this better not be some presidental talk." So I watch it for a second before suddenly they say an airplane flew right into the World Trade Center in New York city. At first they thought it was an accident and the more they talked about it, the more they realized it wasn't. I watched for a long time, seeing how the building exploded, and there was a smoking hole in one of New York's proudest buildings that made a picture perfect postcard of the New York skyline. I was shocked. I then went to get ready for school and on my way there, I listened to the radio, more and more details begin coming in. The tower soon had collapsed. Then a second airplane went into the other tower. At 10 AM, the tower collapsed. By 12, nothing remained of the World Trade Center except maybe a few stories. I got to school and went to the college center and watched the rest of the news there. i watched replays of the plane crashing into the building and the explosion and the views from the streets itself. I remember thinking on my way to school, good thing my Jersey heads are either at school or at home. Because it was so early in the morning. I didn't remember until a while later that my friend Pookie lives in New York. He lives in Brooklyn, but attends school in Manhatten. I begin to panic. With my cell phone in my shakey hands I scroll through my phone book and find his number and call him. The call doesn't go through. I walked through campus seeing everyone on their cell phones...and I try again and again until I remembered that since the antenna was on the Tower, no cell phones, beepers, pagers two ways, nothing would work. I couldn't call him. I didn't know how he was. My next worry came for Minni unni. She lives in Queens, but sometimes goes to Manhatten to go shopping. I prayed today wouldn't be one of those shopping days. I couldn't call so when I found out class was canceled because school is only an hour away from NY, I ran to the parking lot, passing a million other cars trying to get out. A 1/2 hour later, now 11:30, i finally left the parking lot. At 12 PM, I was on a bridge trying to get off so I can go home. Once I left Edison (the town my college is in) I called again. I called BC, I called my umma, I called Pookie and my unni again. No luck. My phone wasn't working. My mom calls me later, telling me her job is still there and she doesnt have to leave so I go home. I call Pookie from my house line and get nothing. My unni calls me later and tells me she's fine. She didn't get to Manhatten that day all though she was suppost to. I was glad she didn't get there.
Much later on, now 1 PM I was at home, back in my bed watching the news as I saw the scenes being replayed over and over again. I realized how horrible this was...how tragic, how so many lives ended today because of some idiot who's got serious problems. The terrorists ruined millions upon millions of lives today. I'm thinking, it's one thing to go and blow yourself up and take a bus, a van or your own fellow psycho's with you, but why hijack a plane, full of innocent people, that had nothing to do with anything and kill them...and hundreds of people at the Tower as well? And the Pentagon, and everywhere else this happened. It's senseless and stupid. Furthermore, what's it going to accomplish other then more bloodshed? More lives lost? Nothing. And I think it's stupid. I hope they find whoever did this, and kill their ass too. Too bad they can't go the same way these innocent people did. Plus, all those families lost, the kids, the husbands, the wives, everyone. It's so senseless and pointless.
I didn't remember until later, that KP's oldest hyung Arie lives in Queens as well, but works in Manhatten. I didn't know what happened to him. All of New York is closed and abandoned now. It's so scary and weird, like something out of a movie. But hopefully everything will be resovled, and they'll find who did this...and make them pay.
Anyway, enough about that huh? I'm feeling better nowadays, but I dunno i think I jus picked a weird day to feel better. And I wrote.
The Bringing of a New Era- Part 22
I may not have school tommorrow which is good. That means I can sleep. Besides all that...I'm about to write another short fic. *sigh* I'm bored.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 10:05 p.m. on Tuesday, September 11, 2001
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Anyone miss 36 Moons? I know I do. And granted I love Petals Black I miss my first fic a lot.
Since I'm feeling down I decided to work it to my advantage, and I wrote a quick short side story from the people of the 36 Moons. I might continue writing these, I'm not sure, but for now, enjoy this one.
For the Briefest Moment in Time- Metsuki Taito
It's full of angst so be forewarned. I, like the typical artist, feed off my angst. So enjoy. Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:04 p.m. on Monday, September 10, 2001
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I dunno, the more I talk about myself at this given moment, the worse I sometimes feel....my mom went to bed a few minutes ago, and I go and say good night to her, and she's like, I'm sad. I ask her why and she's like I don't know. I knew she was going to cry and that really upset me. I know more then likely it has something to do with me something I said, or should have said, or shouldn't have said, or something I did, didn't do, should have done, shouldn't have done...I don't know. She's been all over me to decide my major and though I did, I'm thinking about changing it and she's like all over me for it. It's why I never tell her anything because she loves to bring it up over and over again in the car when we're driving. *sigh* At any rate, doing this isn't making me feel better so I'm just gonna blog about Petals Black.
On With a New Chance?- Part 21
Last time I posted up some pics but not everyone...or anyone couldn't see them because something is wrong with that bitch of a server virtue.nu. It seems to be working now so I'll post them again.
Kanashii: Protect Me From What I Want
Hirokei: I'll Give You A Reason To Hate Me
Bad scan. It looks like I drew it in ink...-.-*
Yukihiro: Apperances can be Decieving
There we go. I dunno I hope the links aren't all stupid like last time. Cuz I am doing the html right =P And finally just because I've been meaning to upload this forever, a first in the long line of yaoi pics:
Kanashii x Seiichiro
If you don't know what yaoi is, then don't look at that. Anyway, I kinda (totally -.-*) ripped this from Angel Sanctuary...but it still looks nice. I drew it when I was in upstate NY that while back. I was gong out of my mind and I was like OMG If I don't see 2 boys kissing soon I'm going to freak out. So I drew it myself. Hm..that sounded weird now that I'm re-reading it. Anyway....oh yeah, my favorite song (well one of my favs) songs from larc was ruined forever. -.- I was reading that Anemone was written by Hyde for his wife. -.-* For Haido's FOOGLY WIFE....he wrote that for her. That upset me highly cuz 1. I love that song. 2. Haido's FOOGLY wife don't deserve it. -.- well whatever....I guess I won't like as much now that I know this. But on the plus side, I got ONE more pic of Haido with blonde dreads. It's small but it works.
http://www.geocities.com/larcnews/bhyde.jpg
Copy and paste, geocities is a bitch. And yeah...it looks nice. I wish I could find more. Oh, and btw that was found at 4th Avenue Cafe, Link on the side *point to link*. Damn man...my fav song too. =.=
*sigh* so yeah...thas about it. I'm feeling down still...quite upset. I wish i could talk to D. And something inside me tells me to write, to feed off my angst because I usually do...so I'm about to...*sigh* Misery loves company after all. Blah....laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 08:49 p.m. on Monday, September 10, 2001
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There are like breif little moments where I'll be happy, even for just the tiniest moment and then I'm right back where I started. How annoying is that? OMG I wish I could just come back to normal.
It's also raining here....and I have to leave in about like 5 minutes to pick up my mom. I'm like....sighing and like not looking forward to driving in the rain and having my hair frizz up on me like it did earlier this afternoon. I had History and health this morning....and I'm not too crazy about having to walk all extra far from the parking lot to my History class which happens to be in the farthest building possible from the parking lot. If anything I should just go park somewhere else. >.>;;;;; *sigh*
I just added this new slam the door thigy to my AOL so when whoever is on my buddy list leaves, the door slams...it just scared the hell out of me....-.-*
Well...I gotta be out for now...driving in the freakin depressing rain. *sigh*
My fuckin stalker is now online....he IMed me...but I blocked him already. Geez man....-.-* I wish they would leave me alone........
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 03:08 p.m. on Monday, September 10, 2001
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I'm still laying here. I'm still feeling down. Though I have perked up a little....I'm still not feeling as good as I use to. I have to go to class 2morrow and I'm not really looking forward to it. I kinda jus wanna sleep and stay home and be left alone. Oh well. *sigh* Today I went with my mom to buy my six year old cousin a birthday present. She bought him a 50$ gift certificate to Toys R Us, and she bought me a video game. I got Tekken Tag since Tekken 4 isn't out for PS2 yet. =P I can't wait for that. Anyway I played that for a few hours. 2morrow I'll play more when I get home from school. I need practice anyway. I got crud in my eye damnit...o.< it's really annoying. Anyway, besides that I wrote a little.
Kara doesn't wanna kill she just wants to tourture Ta a little. By all means Kara go ahead. Knock some sense into him -.-* Maybe he'll like being cute after Kara gets through with him. Yesterday BC was like telling me I shouldn't gloat on the fact that, THAT BOI is hurt because he's Ta's friend and Ta's emotional. So I'm like, So? Let him cry. Let him cry on Hye Sung for all I care. Besides, he's suppost to be "hardcore" and such a "badass" I don't think he would cry. >.> whatever.
Kara is so pretty...
She looks a lot different then I remember. But she's still pretty to me. *sigh* Man...I need to like...take pictures by myself. Some pro ones...I will soon. I'll get my mom to pay for them. =P
Anyway I'm going to bed. I'm tired...and still a little sore. My lower back is hurting again. Damnit. Just what I need. I can't wait till I go back on holiday. *sigh*
I wanna sleep and not get up for like....a week...-.-
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:29 p.m. on Sunday, September 9, 2001
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I've been feeling down all day. I just haven't been like...up too much. I dunno since yesterday after what happened, I'm like...nah. I'm just down. And damn well knowing I should NOT be this sad, I am and that makes me pissed off. I feel so fuckin stupid I could fuckin jus hang myself. *sigh* I'm not in best mood, though I did smile and a laugh a little. Only laugh and I was feeling up because THAT BOI is in the hospital. I'm throwing confetti, setting off fireworks and doing the 1Tym dance cuz of that shit. I'm sorry, but jus cuz I bought him album and I say I'm not gonna punch him when Is ee him, doesn't mean I don't hate him. I'm a fuckin sadist, and when it comes to his misery, I'm livid. I'd be the same way if it was Boa, SES, Finkl Kim Min Hee or Hyde's wife. So hell yeah, we';re fuckin celebratin over that shit. Good for his dumb ass. I'm glad he's there, in pain, broke his fuckin toe, can't sit up. GOOD. Good I say *CLAP* YAY.
I so don't give a FUCK what anyone says. Fuck all of you that flame me for being a fuckin sadist and getting off on his pain. BRAVO for his dumb ass. -.-* Kara is gonna hate me for this. But good. At least she'll IM me and yell at me and then I'll hear from her again. It seems thas the only way she'll talk to me now. Anyway...
Let me say why I'm mad at Kang Ta. I think for the first time since I known about him, I'm so pissed at him. He's really doing a Hyde. Hyde was going through his, "Don't-call-me-cute-I'm-not-cute-I'm-a-bad-ass" stage. And now, Kang Ta is too. He's like "I'm-hardcore-now-you-feel-me-I know-you-do" stage. I'm like....-.-* Uh no. It's like I understand he doesn't wanna be called cute and innocent all his life, and I totally understand he'sa grown fuckin man that needs to have a life, but DAMN do it GRADUALLY. Thas what Hyde did shit I don't know why he's trying to jump all into it now, like "Oooo I'm hardcore look at me" *does "sexy" pose*
Thas another thing. Before him just STANDING there he could be sexy. But now, he's like TRYING and it's like....NOT sexy. He's not sexy when he tries...and I'm jus lookin at him like...>.> um..okay. I still love him, but Imma have to tell him about himself.
Anyway...I dunno I'm jus down, Imma jus post the next chap which I haven't done in a bit.
For You In Full Blossom: The Bloom Tour- Part 19
blah -.-* Imma go now. I'm done for today. *tired and sore*
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:59 p.m. on Saturday, September 8, 2001
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I got the best advice from D last night. She said to see if anything happened with Daniel in front of BC then to see how she reacted. If good, then okay, then if not then to let it go. And I did see. Well let me start from the top.
A whole bunch of unimportant stuff, then we went to see The Musketeer. The action scenes were banging. Anyway Daniel wasn't with us because of crossed time issues but he called me later, and sed to come over after the movie and we did. I watched him closely seeing everything little thing about him that made me like him all the more. Then he dropped a bomb.
In January, he's moving to San Fransico.
There's no point. A lost cause I might as well forget the feelings even exisisted. Just....blah.
So I guess whatever I was feeling before was replaced by this feeling of like...I dunno....just I know I really, really have to let it go now, because it's not even worth it. He'll remain a friend.
Though more then just sexy, he's really beautiful. When he pulled all his hair back and revealed his face, like all of it, I saw how beautiful was. I couldn't help but stare, and let him be the first person besides BC and D I ever looked in the eye for longer then a few seconds. I can never look anyone in the eye for longer then 2 seconds because...I dunno I can't explain it. I just can't. But I did. I looked him in the eyes for the longest time. And when he talked to me, he talked to just me...and I felt like he was giving me full attention....and when he talked, forget about looking at anyone else but him. I couldn't help it.
But it's a lost cause, so whatever.
I kinda already expected this...I rarely get the guy I want. So...hey whatever. At least I didn't like, TELL HIM or nutthin....which I thank God for otherwise I would have made such an idiot of myself. *sigh* Well whatever nothing new, still single. Will prolly remain single for the upcoming year. People, we're closing the seventh year in single life. And still going strong....-.-v
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:32 p.m. on Friday, September 7, 2001
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Okay I'm being over dramtic...as usual. So like whatever. I made some people worry with my last entry...and I'm like....damn man. After a good convo with Hush, she calmed me down. I'm being a little over dramtic as usual.
Okay so here's the basic problem. I like Daniel. Yeah people can kinda see that from the last entry. Since I was trippin over my wallet, I finally gave up and decided that i could wait till Friday to get it back. Even though I sat on a bench for an hour looking around for him. He doesn't blend easily. Anyway, I was home and he had come to my house to give me my wallet. First of all he lives in another town and he had to go to work. I thought it was really sweet of him to go out of his way to bring it back for me. Though I could have waited till tommorrow.
I'm not going into the full extent of what we talked about...
But DAMN he looked SO GOOD
Anyway, we talked, made better detail about 2morrow and then he left.
I'm all over dramtic about shit. I look into shit too much and then over react. There's like certain ways this is going to go.
1. Daniel will prolly never like me back.
2.Daniel will only see me as a friend
3. This will remain one sided as always (8 out of 10 times, it's usually one sided when it comes to my crushes)
4. BC will not even care like I think she will.
Nothing out of the usual for me. And in a way, I'm kinda glad it's one sided. I can get over him quicker and easier this way. *sigh* Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:29 p.m. on Thursday, September 6, 2001
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I'm in trouble.
I'm in big trouble.
And I'm so fucking wrong.
It's so definate....
I'll explain everything later....but for now, let's just leave it at this...
I'm in trouble.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 06:50 p.m. on Thursday, September 6, 2001
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Okay before I explain my title let me just post Petals Black before I forget.
Something Wicked This Way Comes...- Part 18
Okay....so....I had class today. And I went to go drop my other math class to go get a different one. So I'm there, filling out my paper work when my friend Bernice comes in. I start talking to her and I told her I had to get this done and asked her if she wanted to hang out. She said sure so while I told to her, I looked over to the side to see if anyone I knew was walking in out of cutie searching, and I see this boy, with red Woo Hyuk styled hair. And right away I knew who it was. Without a rational thought in my head I go over to him and tapped his shoulder going, "Excuse me, is your name Daniel?" He turns and looks at me as he goes, "Yeah...How'd you know?" So I smile and go, "you're friends with Oogie! And BC!" And I think I scared him because he goes, "Yeah how do you know all that?" I'm like, I recognized your face from BC's pictures." And he goes "Ohhhhhh...." Like this big sigh or relief. He asks who I was and when I tell him he's like "Oh yeah, you went to NY with Chuck, Bong and Oogie that other day." And I told him I was disspointed he couldn't go, because I always wanted to meet him.
And I pause in the middle of this story because I have to explain something. Maybe two years...a year back, BC had the BIGGEST crush on Daniel. I mean she was like crushing on him HARD. I had heard so much about him because of her, I learned everything about this boy, including his last name, height, and birthday because of BC. And of course pictures helped. She went on and on about him until she finally got over him. Anyway...
I end up talking to him and even though I still had to go through some stuff to get my paperwork signed and whatever, I called BC to let her hear Daniel's voice since she hasn't seen him in a bit. I talked to her as I talked to him and I asked him if he wanted to go to the mall. He was like "are you serious?" in a laughing way and I go "Yeah! What time is your next class?" He goes "12:30" (it was like 10 sumthing at this point) And I'm like "we have time. Come on. I jus have to get this paper work done." So he finishes his paper work and then I hang up with BC telling her I'd call her later, and I went to another building with Daniel as we talked. When we got there I saw this line that was song long, that I knew if I waited, we wouldn't be able to go the mall. So I dropped it and said I'd do it tomorrow. Then, we leave and I completly forgot anything about my friend Bernice....>.<
I drive us to the mall, where we listen to H.O.T and we talk about how we like them and what songs we like, and who we like. (He likes Woo Hyuk hehehe)He had me laughing all the way there. When we get to the mall we go in, we cruise around and we stop at the Sanrio store to look around. I didn't see anything I liked, and we were about to leave when I said,"Let's take sticky pics." He follows me to the booth thingy but when I get in he looks at me and was like "are you for real?" I nodded and he comes in. He pays too, even though I said I was gonna. So...we took these: Daniel and me
There's an explation to each pic. The 1st big one, I wasn't ready because it was taking the machine forever to start. When it did I was looking at the side and Daniel was making faces. The second I was ready but...I dunno Daniel was on something LOL. On the left hand side, 2nd row, I started laughing because that one took forever too, and Daniel just...was being weird. LOL. The one next to that one, I covered my face because I was laughing so hard and I leaned on Daniel's shoulder. The 3rd one in, Daniel saw that little action bubble and shouts "ACTION SHOT!!" and he poses. LOL Then I ducked down on the last one because I didn't wanna be alone. Daniel was gonna put his hand there to at least have something, but he was too late and only his shoulder showed up. Bottom left hand corner pic, we both looked down, but his face was lookin weirder then mine. The watermelon he just saw and was like "OOO!!" and pretended to bite it as I looked at him funny. But then I laughed. Then the next one, the heart one, I said "Aww look a heart. We're a couple." I then laugh and I was just standing next to him when he suddenly glomped me. So yeah those are his arms around me. And the last one I was awwing the pandas but he was gonna eat them.
We ended up having a lot in common. We both hate color in out clothes, but like it on everything else, we both like Larc, we both think Haido's early stages where unsettling, we both like Amano, the artist that did the orignal work for Vampire Hunter D and Final Fantasy, we both like a lot of the same Larc songs. We're both racists against our own races, we both think our own races are the same, we both are somewhat the black sheep of our races. I hate spanish guys, he hates asian girls. We're both into anime, and not just the basic stuff. We both think black is a staple color for everything. We both like history. We both like J. There was more stuff, but thas all I can think off the top of my head.
He was making me laugh the whole time, and he was nice, his hair was kick ass, and he was funny. And we talked about almost everything. And it was weird to have so much in common with him. When a friend looked at our sticky pics, she sed it looks like we've known each other for years. I just met him for the first time today. I also accidently scared him with my bad driving! >.< But I apologized and said I wouldn't do it anymore...I didn't know what scared him until he told me so I stopped doing it. And one bad thing, he has my wallet. I told him to hold it for me since he had a bag and I didn't wanna bring mine, so I told him to hold it for me. When I dropped him back off at campus, I 4got to ask for it back...so yeah...I'm pretty much fucked. Until tomorrow anyway. So yeah....that was my day after my 1st 2 classes which were History and Health. Both proffs. I liked a lot. They were mad mellow. Only my english proff. seems to be like errr....>.< but otherwise everything is chill. I have to find out who my math proff. is on Monday since I still have to get my class changed. And on Friday, me, BC, Chuck, Bong and Daniel are going to see a movie. It was Daniel's idea.
When he left, he gave me a hug, and when I got home, I realized my shirt had a lingering scent of him...and so did my car seat.
I think I'm in trouble....
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 10:13 p.m. on Wednesday, September 5, 2001
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Okay first things first.
*sigh* Anyway, I had class today, English, NOT health and I was like err....-.-* Okay I've been to this campus before and I went to the WRONG building to the find my class. Doi....I felt so stupid when I realized it. Gaw...and it was hot. And I wore platforms. I dunno why I think I jus wanna kill myself. Okay let me start from the top. I COULDN'T SLEEP. X.x I got off the phone with BC at 2. Then I listened to Larc for a while, and then it was like 3. So I tossed and turned for an hour, and then it was 4. Then I FINALLY started falling asleep and wouldn't you know it, it was my alarm clock. 5:45 AM I got up after sleeping for a few minutes. -.-* I had to take my mom to work. So I just put on a bandanna, my contacts and drove my mom to work and then got back home. It was around 8 something at this point. I finished up a drawing of Petals Black, then I made my bed. I took a shower, and then got dressed in some low rise jeans X.x big mistake for a big booty person. Aiya were they hard to sit in. Standing, fine. Walking, fine. But noooooo sitting. I had to keep pulling them up. And anyway, I then left my house around 10:10, I drove to campus. I got there only to see total madness and chaos. It was full of people getting in, and getting out so I had to park in west bumblefuck and walk like from the parking lot to China before I get to campus. X.x My feet hurt by the time I arrived. I saw like 2 people I knew. Then I went to the wrong building and when I figured out I was wrong, I went to the right building and I was late -.-* Aiya. THEN my proff. looks at me like I'm a moron when I walk in. So I was like yeah.....>.>;;;;;;;;; I do a sample writing and I'm out. Total minutes of class time: About 20. -.-* I leave, I go home, I rest for a while then get back up and go pick up my mom. My day is through. For today -.-*
But, on the upside, I have been blessed this semester. There are DOLLS walking everywhere!!!! I was like *falls to knees, does thr Sign of the Cross* Thank you God. Oh man just cuties, cuties everywhere!!!!! I was so hyped. Of course I didn't talk to anyone since I looked like ew...cuz my hair frizzed on me. -.-* Anyway, and in my English class I have the cuuutest guy there. *big smiles* YAY a reason to go to class all the time! *throws confetti in the air* Ah yeah, jus all kinds of hunnies. I was very, very pleased. Now if I can just have a hunnie for each other class, I'll be very happy. *sigh*
2morrow I go, change my math class AGAIN, and have health and history. Weeeeeeeee! I like history I know I'm weird. And yeah...I've some time to write, thank God otherwise I'd die. *sigh* first day of class and I'm already loking forward to vacation time. =P
And I listened to LArc FULL BLAST on my way there and back. Mwhaha Larva was pumpin from my car when I got to campus, and people were all lookin like ooo thas a dope mix. LOL I'm like YOU DAMN RITE!!!! YUKIHIRO FROM LARC~EN~CIEL DID IT!!!!!! LOL I'm weird.
Ack, I saw nekkid Shinhwa pics. X.x I did not to see my dog Edic's nekkid ass as many times as I did...or Jin's wide flat ass either. I'm jus glad I didn't see pale skinny Hye Sung, or Woo cuz Woo is jus too cute. Dong Wan I wouldn't have minded. But Edic is like...my dog. He's my oppa. You know like Teddy is mah boi. Thas mah kneegrow rite there. LOL See if you can understand THAT. LOL Oogie's crazy words. So yeah....it was pretty tramatizing. X.x
Okay...thas it for now. I have plans in my head I need to put down. Weeeeeeeeeee. Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 08:55 p.m. on Tuesday, September 4, 2001
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Okay, now 1st off, I can't post Petals Black tonight. My time was cut short since it was Labor Day and my dad was home and it was my mothers bday. *sigh* so I'll have the next chap out 2morrow. I have class 2morrow at 11 in the morning until 12:20 but I have to take my mom to work at 6AM. Faboo...-.-* Anyway let me get to the case and point at hand.
A few blogs down, I posted some emails that my hater sent me. After the 3rd one (because yeah she sent a 3rd) I shrugged and went, okay, now, if someone hates me so much, why are they emailing me and reading my blog and knowing some stuff about me that I posted at this blog a couple of times? Does that make any sense to you? *shakes head* doesn't to me either. So I ignored it although Hushie had a field day with her ignorant ass. Anyway, I was like why am I getting worked up over someone that really has no life? Worse then me anyway hahahaha~
So, that was like...a few days ago...whatever. But today she emailed me AGAIN. And she was going on about some shit I dunno, I barely looked at it. Something about Kang Ta being a no talent person, blah blah blah SES rules, yadda yadda, wutever I jus went delete. I thought, damn really desperate for attention isn't she? I mean she keeps emailing me trying to get me mad, when now I'm like okay wutever, if you wanna be a fobby, no grammer having jack ass, then knock yourself out. It's not the 1st time I've had a hater, won't be the last. I'm just wondering why she, or anyone would bother to tell me how much they hate me like it would have any effect on me. Duh, I spent all of my high school years being hated on. What's a nobody through the internet gonna phase me?
Besides all that she's emailing from that unknown shit, yet I thinkI got her addy anyway. Ms. nobody@springs.holywar.net.
Watch she's gonna email me saying some stupid shit about that too. I can now call it like clock work. *shakes head* It's sad really. *shrugs* oh well. At least when I'm bored me and Hush will have something to tear through. >)
*yawn* man...classes again. -.-* I have to come home after I drop my mom off, and then get ready and go to school, have health (GOD I'M BACK IN HIGH SCHOOL) and then go home, leave AGAIN and pick up my mom from work. *sigh* I'm not to crazy about it, but hey, what can I do....besides bitch and moan here. LOL ^.^v
Drunken Tiger kicks ass. They speak what I'm saying when I'm like being ghetto. LOL aiiiiiite 2morrow, its on to blog about my first day of school. Um...yeah...>.>;;; I PRAY a cutie will be in my class. OH PLEASE send a cutie (like James AHH) in my health class. *crosses fingers* I hope I hope I hope. LOL laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:34 p.m. on Monday, September 3, 2001
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Yeah...random. I didn't do much today. I went to get my eyebrows done because um yeah, I'm not going to class on Tuesday with nasty funky eyebrows. LOL I was like Ah, that's better. Tell me why I really felt like pulling out a picture of Haido from my planner and going, can you make my eye brows like that? Hahahaha I LOVE the shape of Hyde's eyebrows. They're so nice, and well shaped and thin. I like a lot. I wonder if he does them himself (he knows a bitch thing LOL) or if he gets them done by a pro. Hm...I know Ta doesn't do his eyebrows. Like I think he gets them cleaned up and whatever, but not shaped because if he did they wouldn't look the way they look. But it's ALL good. I lub mah Ta's funky eyebrows along with the rest of him. Mwhahaha.
And anywho, I wrote! ^_^
The Price of Fame- Part 16
I wrote all lyrics so yeah....don't ask me where did I get them from because yes, I wrote Love Song Hehehehe I know it sucks. ^^;;; random ish that popped into my head after reading a most beautiful poem Emanuel wrote. ^.^ Faboo.
And yeah...besides that, OH YEAH I have to blog about my most spiffy dream. I had this dream, that I was a boy. And what was scary was that I was a rather pretty boy. I think I made a prettier boy then a girl. But anyway, so I was this boy, and BC was still my friend, because I was gay XD Ah yes, I was a gay boy in my dream. Faboo. And anyway I kept chasing after this Aya look alike that i really really wanted and in the end of my dream I got him and uh..yeah *insert yummy lemon scene here* MWHWHAHAHAH I woke up like whoa....that was cool. I should write that down as a fic somewhere. And I think I just may...if I got inspired. *sob* I haven't been feeling a short fic in a while. *sigh* That's kinda poopies.
Anywho, AH CRAP I forgot to do something...blah okay I'll do that in a sec. Oooo I saw the most CUTEST gay Asian boy today when I went to the mall. MWHAHHA LITA YOU'LL LOVE THIS. He was by himself though...blah. But you know....like he was gay. Not that he was flaming or anything but oh man he was too pretty (like his face) and he had a nose ring, which to me only looked good on ONE guy and that's Hakkuei, but he carried off quite well, anyway, he was wearing some black drawstring pants and sandles, had a black fitted shirt on (which is why I knew he was a boy) and a black hat on. He carried a bag on his shoulder and he had some black framed glasses on and a little diamond stud nose ring. I knew he was gay by number one, that outfit and 2, the way he walked. I dunno something about the way he walked made me automatically think he was gay. He was SO pretty though. Like the shape of his face and the way his eyebrows where done, and his pretty mouth. Oh man, he was also about my height, jus a little taller and he had that PERFECT tiny little waist. Although not as tiny as Sunnie's. And oh man I checked him for as long as I could as we passed each other in the mall. He was so cute. I wanted to be his friend so badly. LOL I'm weird I know.
Anyway, besides all that, I got a new CD holder from Morning Glory, and it was all spiffy looking. Imma use it for school because it can hold 12 CDs so Imma carry my J-rock CDs and my more important K-pop ones like H.O.T's and Ta's and....um....hm...well I don't like THAT BOI's CD enough to tote it around with me everywhere. Besides if someone that saw me and knew who THAT BOI was they might think I was a fan X.X I'd die.
Tomorrow is my mom's birthday. I didn't get her a gift yet. I will though. I love mah mommy. ^_^ Hehehehe
Ohh I read Kara's blog today and she was talking about how self centered/ selfish she is, and how she's resolving not to be anymore. And I was thinking about all the things I am. Because yeah, Kara has this effect on me where I jus wanna focus on myself real quick since she does it so well.
I'm selfish
I'm self-centered
I'm shallow
I'm arrogant
I'm concided to a point
I'm spoiled.
I'm too selfish and self centered to ever be anyone's mother for real. Which if I think about is very very very bad. I mean I can't imagine myself being married and grown and having a child and actually being so selfless to my childlike my mother is to me. I'm so use to all the attention being on me, me, me that for me to have a child would be so bad. I couldn't deal with not being paid attention to. I'm an only, spoiled child. Plus, I'm female. So though I may live in lock down 24/7/365 I get everything I want...well almost everything. I'm on my way to Korea mwhahahahhaa but that's for this up coming spring.
I'm shallow were my proudest saying is I don't make ugly friends. Ugly friends reflect on who you are. So when I tell me close friends this and don't believe me, i wanna kick them so fucking hard. I only got truely, truely deeply into H.O.T because I thought Hee Jun was a doll. I thought Kang Ta was a doll, I then later appericated them for more then their looks. I only got into Gackt because he was hot. Same thing with Luna Sea (Sugizo), Dir-en-grey (Kaoru, Shinya), Larc (Haido, Yukihiro), Glay (Hisashi) and Penicillin (Hakkuei). I would have never even casted a glance at them to learn about their music if not for the fact that there were some bishies there. If I hear music first, then I see the band that's different. But if I see the band 1st, then I hear the music, I'm thinking. I won't go out with a guy that treats me like gold if he's less then my standards. If you're a fuckin demi-god, and treat me like shit, guess what, you're my new boyfriend. I've done a million times before. My last quest, Hye Sung. Fucking beautiful, good kisser, nice eyes, good hair, bangin body. On the inside, he was stupid. Couldn't hold a convo to save his life (didn't know what a fuckin hemisphere was...-.-*) he was kinda psycho too, he was quick to anger, he always looked lost, he thought school was a waste of time, was once a heavy drinker and smoker, and protected his dongsangs too much. Was arrested so many times in his youth and he wasn't very nice. Yet he looked good...so it's why I wasted time on him.
Me being conceided/arrogant all comes from me just thinking I'm cute. I think I'm cute. I'm not saying oh yeah man, I'm the shit and every girl is crap compared to me, but I'm cute. I can get some attention. Thas about it. I have a few things going for me. Thas all. I'm pretty content with myself but you know I do have that damn female thing where I'm not COMPLETLY happy with myself. Like my tummy could be flatter, and my hair could be better, and my nails could better taken care of...but you know....
Knowing all this about myself, I never strided to change. I don't think I should. I have nothing to make me feel I should. I'm me. I'm content with me. I'll bullshit for who I can pretend to be for a while, but that's just my represtinative, after a while she goes away and then it's me. I dunno, I guess that's the selfishness in me that refuses to change for nothing or no one. I have a feeling a will though. Once I get something to make me feel I should change.
I'm so full @.@ I also need a drink. I've had 2 ice teas so far. Blah...no din din though because I had 2 chicken sandwichs before. Oi and I'm STILL full. Damn man It'll go down hopefully. *sigh*
Um...yeah I ramble a lot. I think I should stop. ^^;;; okay, laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 12:02 a.m. on Monday, September 3, 2001
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Okay I blogged again Hahaha leave me alone.
Thas jus so kawaii. *^.^*
I would love to wake up to this. Espically that close XD
Mwhahahhaa. P.S Jun finally bloged at the Yakuza blog. La la la la....^_____^
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 01:21 a.m. on Sunday, September 2, 2001
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I'm just wasting time posting about ignorant people's emails to me. *rolls eyes* I shouldn't even care...well actually I don't so whatever. =P
Moving on. I know I've been slacking with Petals Black blah....my bad. Okay, I should post up another chap. ^^;;; Sorry sorry. Okay here we go.
Ah yes....um...I should really get to work on this more. Man I need some feed back X.x I haven't heard my darling Lita's reaction in a while now...*sigh* man. I hope she's okay. I missssssssss her.......wah!
Anyway what else...um...hm...*shakes head* I was cold before, so now I put on my bathrobe, but my mom turned off my AC....so now I'm getting warm. @.o and I ate like a glutton...and that's about it. LOL I shouldn't though because remember, I'm fat. Anyway Oh, I checked Gijimo's and Janie's blog before and I was DYING when I saw Gijimo had linked up that pic of Junie's arched body there. XD well it is a rather nice angle. AH THAT REMINDS ME. I was watching the Luna Sea video for Gravity (one of my all time fav songs)and OH MAN that video had the BEST crotch shot of my guitarist Sugizo XD I was like YEAH BABY WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO basically, I hooted and howeled like a man leering at a woman's cleveage. XD well if they can do it to us, why can't I howl at a beautiful crotch shot of Sugizo? Yeah thas what I thought.
I say, whatever a man can do, a woman can do to. And that INCLUDES howling and leering at men when the camera happens to point at intersting angles. XD oh yeah....*drool* That's just fuckin sexy. I can howl at whoever I damn well please thank you.
Anyway, um...I forgot what I was gonna say....doi. AH yeah I updated my pagie again since I caught more bishes. *throws confetti in the air* I got a lot. But even the ones I once caught I let go a few of them because I'm picky about my bishies. LOL Yeah but I caught a few more including the 1st Korean Bishie that got put up, BAEKKYOUNG! 1Tym Jjang! ^_____^ I need to start linking Petals Black to that thingy. Oi....so much work to do on that page still...*sigh* Um...okay I may blog again laterz....I'm not sure. I already blogged like 4 tymz. hahaha. If the need moves me to I might. ^_^v laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 10:52 p.m. on Saturday, September 1, 2001
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Got another email from my adoring fan.
do u know how to read, crazy girl?
kangta would never love an ugly fat foreigner like you. look in the mirror. u are so ugly. your nose is big and ugly, ugly eyes, and you are fat. kangta only like attractive asian women, he would fall in love with someone like me instead of u.
and people go to korea because they care about him. they live alone and work hard to do what they want, they don't live with their parent and ask them for money. hee hee. u crazy girl living in dream
Okay so I'm fat and ugly now. *shakes head* all righty. Though last time I checked I was pretty skinny, and by people's mouths pretty but hey I could be wrong. Ohh and MY BAD it was UnknownSender@UnknownDomain....opps. Crazy silly me. Okay one more time.
do u know how to read, crazy girl?
Um no. I can't read. Sorry.
kangta would never love an ugly fat foreigner like you.
Hm...okay because I'm fat and ugly right? Or is just the foreigner thing? Racist anyone?
look in the mirror.
*looks in mirror* Hm...I broke out a little...damn. Hm..that's kinda sucky. I need to get my eyebrows done. Okay I'll do that tomorrow.
u are so ugly.
Big vocabulary huh?
your nose is big and ugly, ugly eyes, and you are fat.
So...not only all of me is big and ugly but so is my nose. Damn. That kinda sucks. And I'm fat too. Oh boo hoo. Time for that nose job and lipo I've been putting off.
kangta only like attractive asian women, he would fall in love with someone like me instead of u.
Nice of you to make thoughts and choices for him. Maybe he wouldn't like me, hell maybe he woouldn't like you either. Is it because I'm NOT Asian that's bothering this girl? I think it is. That's kinda fucked up that at this day of age, not only a dumb cunt would email me, but a dumb RACISTS cunt would email me. Damn.
and people go to korea because they care about him.
That or they have money....or family....or both.
they live alone and work hard to do what they want, they don't live with their parent and ask them for money.
Really? I didn't know most 12-16 year olds lived alone and worked hard to go to Korea alone. Wow...learn something new everyday. And I guess they don't ask their parents for money. But hey, I guess I have it easy since I get almost everything I want. But it's cool.
hee hee. u crazy girl living in dream
Hee hee. Yeah, silly me. *flips her off*
Wow she don't get tired of insulting me do she? I thinkit's sad that she's racist. But it's all good. I'm not even mad no more because I'm having fun posting up her ignorance for the world to see. Sawl good. Not even phased
Hope everyone has fun reading this dumb rasicist cunts comments about me. ^_^v
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 10:24 p.m. on Saturday, September 1, 2001
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I just got this email a few minutes ago.
you say you love kangta the most, but look at all the other men. i know more fans more devoted than you. they travel to korea to see him. they really love kangta. you don't.
>.>
Okay I would say the dumb cunts email addy, but the punk ass bitch that she is sent it from Unknownsender@Unknownserver.com. So YEAH.....Imma be phased by a dumb hoe that can't even email me from her own email addy, and say shit to my face. OKAY since more then likely she's reading this, LISTEN UP YOU FUCKIN SLUT
Check it I'mm rip this shit line from line:
you say you love kangta the most, but look at all the other men.
Um yeah. I'm not like gonna worship him 24/7/365, because oo I know the fuckin sun does NOT revolve around him you dumb cunt. I realize that there are OTHER THINGS in this world beside Kang Ta. Should I be a helpless, mindless little teeny bopper and just say "I live, breath, and sleep Kang Ta?" Because I love him doesn't mean I worship him at all hours. DUH
i know more fans more devoted than you.
Well goody for you. You know more underage pre pubicent tenny boppers. You want a fuckin cookie?
they travel to korea to see him.
Hey bitch, you ever stop to think that MAYBE I don't have the money to go see him? You and your fuckin little friends may have all the money in the world to go see him, family and shit in Korea, but I'm a college student, with parents that work to put me through school and have OTHER things to pay for then my shopping spree and stalking trip to Korea. Shit if I had the money don't you think the 1st fuckin place I'd be IS Korea? Shows what a dumb ass heffier you are.
they really love kangta. you don't.
Okay yeah and just WHO the fuck are you to tell me what I feel and what I don't feel? Suck a dick bitch, choke and DIE okay? Because I could care less to what the FUCK you think. So stick all your little thoughts and whatever else you have up your ass and burn in hell.
-.-* People are so fucking stupid.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 09:24 p.m. on Saturday, September 1, 2001
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Okay I woke up today around 1 cuz Ghost called me. I want to see her today yet somehow I don't think I can...>.>;;; I hate that. Anyway, tell me why I got bit by a mosquito on my chest right under my collar bone. I left it alone for a long time but sometime during the night as I slept, I probably scratched it and I woke up this morning with a layer of dry blood over the wound, and on the tips of my fingers. I felt like I was waking up in a horror movie, having blood everywhere. It pretty much sucked. THEN, later on, I'm jus rubbing my chin because it's annoying me, then I scratch it lightly and I look at my fingers and TADA I'm bleeding yet again. I think my nails are too long. I'm like WTF...I keep making myself bleed because my nails are too long. I mean it wouldn't be the first time I scarred myself for life. Blah....
Anyway everyone seems to be loving my whole what Hee Jun has that's big and small XD yeah man. Gijimo ur a little thing, I have no idea what you're talking about that you're fat. Same thing with Hee Jun. Just because he's got a round face don't mean HE'S round himself. It's the clothes. If anything that boy should EAT.
I noticed little skinny girls worry about their weight like they can actually get fat. I'm like....@.o ur a stick.
Stick Girl: " No, no, look I'm fat! I gained sooooooo much weight. I'm a big cow!
Me: Well how much do you weigh?
Stick Girl: 102!!!! *sob*
Me: -.-;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; (who weighs 125)
I hate that so much. I'm so sick and tired of girls bitching about how fat they are when they're like...still fitting in size negative zero for kids...-.-* Besides, what so freakin great about being 87 pounds? That means you have NOTHING. You can't fill a tube top or a pair of hip huggers. That's not cute. NEWS FLASH: Bones and skin, is NOT sexy. Besides, don't people realize that average woman in this state is a size 12? And I'm saying, if you're fat, you're fat but quit your bitching and do something about it and STOP FUCKIN EATIN like a glutton. I have no sympathy for fat people because if it was really that important to you, then you'd do something about it. If you're comfortable, then GOOD. Be comfortable. Got no ill will about that.
Anyway I FINALLY got a chance to see Gen X Cops this bad dubbed Hong Kong flick with Nicholas Tse in it. I was like ooo....yeah man it was good. Well kinda...it was like dealing with yakuza and stuff. It was kick ass. I dunno the dubbing was bad, but the parts they spoke English in was kinda werid and I was like wait...@.o are they speaking actual English or is it dubbed? Hahaha and tell me why the bad guy yakuza sounded like he had a French accent when he spoke in English AND in Japanese. It was weird. LOL XD but I loved it anyway. It was very entertaining. Check it out but don't expect too much of a deep mind twisting plot. It's a typical Hong Kong kung fu flick.
*sigh* No one is oooooooon. I dunno wut to do...I guess I'll go through this new sight i got from Aeris XD weeeeee. Haido!!!! ^_________^ *still OD-ing on Haido* Ooo and I need to watch Driver's High again so I can see Yukihiro in that cute ass hat and of course Haido's killer smile. ^.^v
Hmmm i watching this thing on VH1 about androgany in metals bands and how they're pretty but gruff sounding blah blah blah and I'm like DUH.....girls DO like that. Well some girls. The open minded one. But in all honosty, American rock bands don't really look "feminie, androganious, pretty" to me. Not like J-rock bands. And I don't even mean Haido when L'arc was a indies band (because that was unsettling) and not Malice Mizer and whatever. I mean like L'arc now, that natural beauty and Gackt, and so on. THAT'S beauty and prettifulness. ^____^ YAY J-rock kicks ass. Then agan it's why I like Eve too. Eve is a K-rock band, and HELLO Kim Gun, Woong Park the bassist and guitarist are just fuckin bangin. Hmmm...>.> needs to get pics. Let me go scan some before I 4got. Hhehehhee
Because you can never get anough Hyde pics of him licking his lips XD
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Eve.jpg
Eve's pic (virtue.nu is being a bitch again) The bassist and guitarist of Eve
Weeee...oh yeah let me tell you how Hye Sung is (*gasp* what a shock) being a selfish bastard. -.-* Boy Imma hear about this from later. Look, my oppa KP is in Korea, he had everything he's familar with, taken away and taken to a country where he can't speak the lanaguage and forced to live there. He's a home grown New Yorker and though KP himself is Korean, he was not born in Korea, he was born in Queens, and he can't speak Korean. Now he's in Korea because of Hye Sung and he is getting deperessed. Someone that was once active and energitic, is now sleeping for weeks on end. He quit school, and quit his job. He said he quit his job because of his torn ligament, but he's almost better now, and he still hasn't gotten up to get a job. he's just sleeping all day. He's depressed and everyone can see it. I feel bad for KP because he's been there for a year and he's already doing nothing. I feel bad for him. What if something worse happens to him, since he's so depressed. I can't say anything but DAMN HYE SUNG!!! Look at what you're doing to him!! Geez man...-.-*
Anyway I digress...I spelt that wrong....anyway I HAVE SCHOOL THIS TUESDAY *sob* damn man that so sucks. I don't wanna....and I just realized it's September...^^;;; yeah Im late. I can't help it, I havent changed my calander since H.O.T ^^;;;
All righty. Time to go write and look for more Haido pics. ^.^v hehehe laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 04:07 p.m. on Saturday, September 1, 2001
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Anyway, I went out with BC earlier which is why I didn't get to finish. We were suppost to go see a movie, but when we got to the mall, her dad called her, asking if he would come home to give him his wallet that he left in her car. We were like -.-;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; we had JUST gotten there too. We were in the middle of parking actually. But it's okay because we went back to BC's house after picking up a pizza and we sat down and watched all the L'arc stuff BC has saved on her compy. I got to see the Kasou video which I have nicknamed the "gives-me-chills" video XD. Okay let me explain, there's this part in the video where Haido just does this....MOAN thing and I'm like AHHHH @.o I got a chill. And when I saw it I was like REWIND!!!!!!! BC I call rewind!!!! And she was kind enough to play it back one more time. I got chills going through me when I heard Hyde do that moan. I was like....ahhhhhh *shutter*
Hyde's look from the gives-me-chills video
So sekshii....XD in the video his eyes were gray and he wore some stuff in his hair that made it look grayish/silverish/violetish....and it looked like he had no eyebrows but he was STILL a sekshii bitch. Ah and speaking of a sekshii bitch that Hyde is, I'm on this MAJOR search for Hyde with blonde dreads like in this pic: Hyde's blonde dreads. I'm dying for more of these pics. He looks sooooooooooo good. XD Um...>.> okay I'm wandering off what I was suppost to talk about before....okay.
One of the topics was 2nd doubt, and for a moment I was going to put something here...and now I don't think I will. I wanna keep this to myself. I actually don't wanna tell anyone what I'm feeling...I mean I told BC but that's it. I'm keeping this to myself after much careful thinking. Maybe later I'll blog about it. But for now, this is between me, myself and I.
Anyway, I was also searching through some random sites and I found more Hyde pics XD Weeeeee....my fav pastime now. >.>;;; of course I still couldn't find any of him with blonde dreads....-.-* this is getting annoying. Anyway here are some of the new ones I found. (Well they're new to me damnit =P)
Hyde has this thing with his lips...
I'm not complaining though....
Hyde again being friednly with his tonuge
I used a similar pic for my layout before XD I love when he do that.
Proof belly rings on guys are sexy
And why not? I still want my Taya to have one damnit.
Because it's so damn sekshii
A tattoo and a belly ring, and that thing with his tonuge...X.X gaw he SO needs to NOT be married.
Anyway I also saw the Driver's High MV, Heaven's Drive and a live perfomance of them doing Winter Fall, and the Blurry Eyes MV which I DID NOT like. Haido's TOO pretty which is unsettling. Then of course Kasou aKa The gives-me-chills video. I LOVED that one best. The Driver's High, and Heaven's Drive. Then I got to see Hyde's special which was just a bunch of random clips of Hyde being a sekshii bitch. And needless to say I was happy. ^_____^ and since I just got Ark, my new CD from my loving dongsang, I was listening to that all day ^^. So basically I OD-ed on Hyde.
Weee....not that I'm complaning.
It seems like everyone and they momma opening a blog lately. And I admit, some people really NEED a blog I.E Hush, BC, me, Gijimo, Maki, Kara etc, etc, you know them people that actually BLOG and have something important to say...if not important then at least intereting. But like random people that have no buisness having a blog...have a blog....and then they don't use it. I'm like....dude then what's the point? I dunno...I think it's pointless unless you're gonna use it and ish. If not then why bother. I saw someone else had opened a blog later on today and I'm like OH GEEZ ANOTHER ONE.....@.o
I got something in my contact that's bothering the hell out of me....>.<
My Taya's got a new promo poster for Polaris which I might end up getting later. I dunno ever since I ran out of room for any kind of poster, I haven't been to avid to buy them as much anymore. Espically a poster everyone and they momma can get. -.-*
*yawn* I should write more of Petals Black
Tell me why at least 5 people IMed me, and now....I'm talking to NO ONE. Well BC I understand she went to blog. *sigh*....oh well...at least I finally finished blogging. Okay Imma go. Imma go write some more since I have the chance of being left alone.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 10:50 p.m. on Friday, August 31, 2001
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Okay yesterday I didn't have time to blog and even today I have some time limit on me but I have more time then yesterday. Anyway, yesterday I got a interesting pic from my Maki-chan. It was of Hee Jun's body from the 918 concert when he was on the thingy....where he fell the 1st time...-.-* anywayz, this is the pic.
Okay 1st off, I couldn't get that picture out of my head all night. I kept thinking about it. Espically since Maki chan pointed out that he's got little nipples. It caused me to think of all the things Junie's got that's little....>.> I mean he's got a big ass, big eyes, big lips, big...hair, big feet. And he's got a little nose, and he himself is little but his fingers are thick....and now he's got little nipples...>.> interesting...hahahahha
Anyway I didn't have a chance to post up Petals Black yesterday but I will now that I have the time and whatever. ^^v
Also, I finally decided to scan and post up more pics of them ^^ It's what I call the T-shirt series. ^^v
Kanashii: Protect Me from What I Want
Hirokei: I'll Give You a Reason to Hate Me
( i have no idea why the pic scanned that way =P)
Yukihiro: Appereances can be Decieving
I'll continue bloggin laterz I gotta go =P
taya brought her Closer... @ 03:08 p.m. on Friday, August 31, 2001
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I h ave no time to blog though I wanted and I have like a million things to post. -.-* UGH I hate my short time limit. Blah =P Oh well tomorrow I will....
With luck...AHHHHHHHHH
I'm annoyed now. Blah =P Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 12:15 a.m. on Friday, August 31, 2001
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taya brought her Closer... @ 09:17 p.m. on Wednesday, August 29, 2001
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Okay yesterday (August 28th) was my Gijimo's birthday. And even though she told me last week, and I saw a little thingy for it in the H.5.T, I STILL forgot to blog about it or drop her an emali that I remembered -.-* I dunno I think I was in Mars all day yesterday since I was being all random about Hyde's Foogly wife. Speaking of which
Why did not you have it? Why did not you have it, why did not you repeat it, I don't do, the thing like that. Wish I'd done it instead...
Anyway I was just listening to Good Morning Hide. Anywho, I told my Gijimo that I was gonna get her a birthday present, which I will, I'm going shopping this Sat. anyway with Ghost *GLOMPS GHOST* so I'll have a chance to buy her something. ^.^ My Gijimo is getting old....awwwwww LOL pretty soon she won't be my little Gijimo anymore. *sigh* Anyway since I know one of her presents that she wants is Hee Jun, I decided to give him to her ^_^
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/HJOC.jpg
Gijimo's present. From me to her ^.^ And yes I drew it myself -.-* I just hope my darling Gijimo likes it. *blows kisses*
Anyway I realized why I'm going so slow just a second ago. Someone's d/ling off me from Winmx which I decided I hate when people do. I HATE that. Unless I know and love you.
OMG I have to start class next week...-.-* blah and all of my classes start at like...8 in the morning AND I have to take my mom to work so that means I really have to get up at 5:45 to take her to work....don't that suck? She needs to get her own fuckin car man. I can't gettin up that early when I don't have to. Speaking of my car, she told me this morning that when she was leaving to go to work, she found out the whole roof of my car was sunken in. I was like WTF?? She says it was probably my moron cousin. I wouldn't doubt it. My cousin is a fucking moron anyway so hell if it was him and his weed smoking "I'm too cool to actually be anything but a hobo" friends, I wouldn't be too shocked. Fuckin hater ruin my car man. I now have a fuckin dent on the roof of my car where it wouldn't push back up. I was so pissed off. See I was gonna be modest and shit and just keep my car even though my mother insists on using it, and whatever, but now, Imma get a new one and a fucking parking garage so no one can touch that shit but me. So HA. -.-* Moron.
Anyway on lighter news my daughter gave me this ^______^
*runs to Taya's embrace* Ahhh....heaven. I'm in heaven. And another thing, *clears throat*
Proof of Dong Wan's weridness/stupidity/foolishiness...whatever...
That pic is just too funny LOL. Don't ask who that guy next to him is. But he reminded me of Towa from Aucifer cuz of that hair....O.o uh...yeah...
Okay...Imma go write. I'll blog again laterz. *yawn* Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 08:35 p.m. on Wednesday, August 29, 2001
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Okay like....today I was talking to BC *throws confetti in the air* cuz she FINALLY got online. She's been absent for quite some time...the big poop. Anyway when she FINALLY got on, I was able to show her the pic of Hyde's FOOGLY wife. Blah...she's SO BUSTED. And when I looked at her again, I still said, damn that bitch is foogly. And anyway I showed her this pic...so yeah this Hyde's (sekshii ass BOOTIFUL Hyde) foogly wife.
BC looked at her and said:
Babi1004v23:she looks like a man
LOL I was like word...look at her chin man! It's like....Jay Leno has nutthin on her yo...and anyway I said Im mad at Hyde cuz he can do better and BC says:
Babi1004v23:u don't really have to look at her when she's on her kness 24/7/365
Which again is VERY true because either she's nice as hell, or chick give some of the best head Hyde ever got.Um....*look at the foogly heffier* I'm going with good head...cuz you know...Hyde prolly got good head from her and was like "OMG Imma marry this girl she made me come 31 times....she's my wife." And Tetsu was prolly like, "No, Haido, dun marry her she's like...ew. You can do better." So then Hyde said "No, dude, she made me come 31 times." And Tetsu, after scrtaching his head and thinking it over, he was like, "Well...I guess. I mean not like you have to see her often...plus you can always cheat on her. ^.^v"
LOL so anyway....let me stop being all mean...no wait...one more time. That girl is so Foogly. Where she's so UGLY that shes OOGLY but she's so OOGLY that she's FOOGLY as in FUCKIN OOGLY....LOL okay now I'm done.
Walking the Path to Success- Part 13
Mind the shonen ai in there...la la la la...not much of a warning I know. XD
And I was looking over my last nights blog with my little thingy of me and Ta, and I realized I wrote the song wrong, it isn't kissing in a tree (doi on my part) it's sitting. I fixed it. I felt all stupid. But hey wut u want, I haven't sang this stupid song since I was in 3rd grade =P
Anyway...yeah...thas about it. *yawn* *stretch* Oh and um...yeah...LOL I talked to Linna *GLOMPS WRATH* She's back ^.^b faboo.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 09:39 p.m. on Tuesday, August 28, 2001
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Why? Cuz of this.
Mwhahahahhaaha XD
Thank you Maki-chan *GLOMP*
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:56 p.m. on Monday, August 27, 2001
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Um...yeah I so totally mispelt that. But anyway, yeah I didn't blog last night like I wanted to...I didn't have time because apparently everything was throwing me off course. Plus I've been having this annoying headache that doesn't go away for shit. It like not even big, but like a small headache just on the sides of my head, sometimes the front...and it throbs for a moment before it leaves. But it happenes periodically. Which makes them annoying. Anyway I'm sitting here having an avacado...or however the fuck you spell it. It's this....i don't know...fruit thing they make chip dip out of it. LOL Anyway I love this...it's good as hell. Plus I didn't eat today because my mom made me soup, and besides Maki, no one knows how much I really, really LOATH soup. >.> there was a period of time where that's all my mom would give me...and I so hate using spoons for other then eating cereal, ice cream and fruit. Blah so anyway I took my usual painkiller and I feel a little better. *sigh*
Plus now I was suppost to post a new chap yesterday and I didn't get a chance to so Imma do it now ^^;;;
Annnnnnnnd because Lita said J-rockers are a visual band then...well...here's a pic too. Virtue.nu is being a bitch...as usual >.> so you have to copy and paste it.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/PetalsBlack_Group3.jpg
It's a group pic of all of Petals Black again. Don't get use to that look already, it'll change by their next album XD
Anyway, I was also talking to my Gijimo *^^* and she was telling me how she can't draw Junie and that Ta is easier for her. X.X I can't draw Ta without devoting mass hours into it. If I mess up, I throw it out. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to his face. X.x which is why I don't have many pics I drew myself of him to begin with. Well anyway, I told her I could draw Junie pretty well. ^.^ Of course when you look at it from an artistic point of view, all Hee Jun is in shapes, are ovals and circles. So, hence, Junie is like the easiest person for me to draw. *^^* It's those cheeks. They're so round. Hehehhee So she asked if I had any pic of him I drew. And I doooo. SO. For my Gijimo's pleasure and everyone elses, here's my pic of Junie.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Juniedrawing2.jpg
Told ya there was nothing to him. Tee hee. Hey Linna if you're reading this, you can look at the drawing too, his eyes are covered up. (Both of them) hehehehe
Anyway, OH MAN, I have to say how like a few days ago, I was listening to Good Morning Hide, a song from L'arc, that I heard was in English. So I d/led it and I was like...um..okay, I can hear "morning", "why", and "same as mine" and thats it. I figured he was throwing in the Japanese in there somewhere. I didn't think the whole song was in English. Low and behold thanks to Mira, I found it is. Hyde is just fobalicious. ^__^ and he can go ahead and be fobalicious because he's Hyde and he's fuckin sekshii as hell. SO Anyway, for anyone that knows that song, just don't know what the fuck Hyde is saying, here are the lyrics.
Good Morning Hide
The scene you accept and you see
It's easy for me to understand
it must be the same as mine
Why are not they tired?
Why are not they tired?
I don't do the thing like that
I just do it instead
If a morning starts at the moment when you wake up
It has been morning till now
I don't need a night
I cannot define this place
Except a certain additional value
Everything is unnecessary
It's ok, if your destination is the same
The scene will never change
The scene you accept and you see
It's easy for me to understand
It must be the same as mine
The scene they accept and they see
It's different from mine, I don't imagine
I don't do the thing like that
I just do it instead
It seems it has been morning
I'll keep this morning no matter
I spend much time, I go far away
I don't need a night yet
I can take it like this
They will keep their night forever more
You don't need the night at this moment
By the time when the morning turns into the moon
My action will be harmonized
The scene you accept and you see
It's easy for me to understand
It must be the same as mine
The scene they accept and they see
It's different from mine I don't imagine
I don't do the thing like that
The morning hides all
Why did not you show it?
Why did not you notice it?
Where is your scene from everything?
Please tell me now
Why did not you have it?
Why did not you repeat it?
I don't do the thing like that
I just do it instead
Yes, everything is an imagination
Yes, it's also a realization
Why did not you show it?
Why did not you notice it?
Why did not you show it?
Why did not you notice it?
Why did not you have it?
Why did not you repeat it?
I don't do the thing like that
Wish I've done it instead....
Now I put breaks in the song, but there's only like one REAL break in the song, but Hyde jus...sorta sings one verse on top of the other. It sounds nice...too bad he doesn't break his sentences and breaks in the wrong place to confuse the hell out of people further...as if we're not already due to his fobaliciousness....^.^ But it's all good. I got the lyrics a little while ago from Mira but I kept forgetting to post them until now ^.^;;;; *sigh* Okay I better go write sumthing....I'm all being lazy =P
*sigh*
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 08:08 p.m. on Monday, August 27, 2001
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Oh my god...I got some shock today. I got an email from my unni today telling me that Aaliyah died today. I was like what? No way. I thought it was a rumor or something, but then I found out she did. It was a plane crash on her way from the Bahamas. That's so sad. I mean I'm not all crying and whatever, but still, I liked her music, I loved her voice, and I thought she was so pretty, and I loved the way she danced, and she had mad skills. She was also really young. I can't believe she actually died you know? It's like...suddenly, bam she's gone and it eally makes you think.
Oh God now I'm gonna be all corny and be like, yeah "it really makes you think" duh, of course it does. Its hows it can happen, any time, any where. It's like whoa....I dunno, I think it's pretty sad. But like I said, I'm not gonna mourn for days and be like OH NO!! *sob* because, really it's not that serious for me. I do feel sad though cuz I did respect her. She's one of the few female artists I liked. It's jus sad she passed away today.
Well anyway, moving along, I wrote. *throws confetti in the air*
Yeah well besides that, I have to go back to my subject of Aaliyah's death. I mean she wasn't a good actress, though she's in Queen of the Damned. She was suppost to be in Matrix 2, which I was kinda mad about because like I said, she's not a good actress. But now I guess Romeo Must Die and Queen of the Damned will be her only 2 movies. And I heard she really wanted to be an actress/singer/song writer. Here's some more news on her death and how it happened.
News on Aaliya's death
It's always sad when someone passes away. For some really weird reason I can picture her on that plane, knowing what it's like when you know you're gonna die. It makes me feel sad...she must have been so scared...*sigh*
At any case, I hope her fans are okay. And of course her family and stuff.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 01:12 a.m. on Sunday, August 26, 2001
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Okay over time in this blog I think I mentioned how bitchy I can be and how I feel when it comes to my Taya. I think I must have rambled on and on about how "fuckin beautiful" he is and how perfect and blah blah blah, and the pedestal he's standing on now must be pretty damn high thas all I can say. Anyway, so low and behold much to believe I finally came across a picture of him where he did NOT look his best. I dismiss all his Junsah and Candy pictures since he was first off, mad young and no one looks cute when you're 1. That dark 2.drowned in hair products, so those pictures are excused. But anyway, he looks so BAD it hurts my feelings to say that!!! Well let me show you what I mean.
There are more but they're posted at the H.5.T Forum so go and look yourselves if you haven't already. X.X I hate the way he looks because he reminds me of your typical average "I'm-Queen-of-the-world" bitchs. And that upsets me because my Taya is not a bitch...X.X It's very much upseting to say that...*sigh* he doesn't look good. (_ _)
*sigh*
So Dare I say, he looks bad....X.X
I NEVER thought I'd say that. ME Kang Ta's Baby, saying, Taya looks bad...but he does...it's only cuz of the...stuff....on the up side, at least he makes a pretty girl. Which should be disturbing but it's not because, hey, I like J-rock.
Anyway 2 nights ago, I was up late because (as usual) I couldn't sleep. So I drew. ^.^ Here it is.
http://www.geocities.com/emperorhyun_27/Tayadrawing2.jpg
Copy and Paste. Bitchy Geocities. Anyway I drew my Taya because...well...I dunno his CD was right in front of me and that pose is from the CD jacket...so yeah...my daughter says it looks like him ^_^ Which is good. Hehehhe. Cuz that was the intent.
OH And I forgot, it was 2 days I didn't post Petals Black So let me do that now.
Yesterday I went to Great Adventure with D and BC and I ended up with a headache. It was okay, it wasn't too much fun because it started to rain, and 2 no cute guys. But I still ended up having fun because I'm with my 2 best friends. I lost my voice though so now when I answer the phone people think they woke me up. =P On the upside, Linna called me!! *GLOMPS WRATH* She called me today too and we talked for a little bit. It was so nice to hear her voice. ^^ And she left me voice mail the other day. hehehe ^^ YAY. I loved talking to her. Heheh she sounded all cute. hehehe
Anyway, I recovered today by sleeping and my headache went away but my legs were sore, and my voice is still gone. =P But I wrote a little more ^.^ And my new fic Picture Perfect is now being sent out. ^_^v faboo. *sigh* I'm back to workin on 2 fics again. Which isn't too bad. I like having things to do...sometimes. Anyway, I better go cuz...um...yeah I finished LOL. Oh wellz. Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:51 p.m. on Friday, August 24, 2001
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I went out today really suddenly and I was like o.O oh lord. I didn't think I could get ready that fast but I did. ^_^ skips for me. Anyway I went out with my friend Stephy and I love her to death because everytym I hang out with her, I end up laughing a lot and talking about sex. It's great because both of us always talk about how we're man-less, date-less and horny but we don't wanna touch ourselves because that's just gross. LOL Anyway, we were like OMG it so sucks that like a lot of people around us are having babies or getting married and we're still single. Like this one girl we knew in high school who was this big fat cow, has a man, and now had a baby. We're like damn...and we don't even have a man. T.T But anywayz, I digress. We went to see The Others and OH MAN....that movie was fuckin good. I didn't think it was gonna be as good as it was, and it was. It scared the beejeezus out of me. At one point me and Stephy were holding hands near a scary part and it happened so suddenly, we both screamed and jumped towards each other and we ended up knocking heads @.@ LOL we laughed about it because it was just so stupid of us. We were scared pretty good though.
After that we kept talking about how good the movie was and then we left and she dropped me off. But before the movie I went to go clothes "seeing" because my poor ass didn't wanna spend my money. And I saw this coat that was long, had to high slits on the side and long semi-see through sleeves. I LOVED IT. It was so me that I pictured myself wearing my imfamous knee high stripper boots and a short ass skirt with a cute top. I loved it. I seperated it so I could buy it later. ^_^ It was 24$ T.T I should have bought this cute knee length gray dress that was a halter and I loved the way the material felt on me. It was only 10$ but I didn't have enough for THAT. Isn't that sad? OMG it depressed me. I need more money. And I wanted to put it on my credit card but I only had 5$ on it. T.T Thas because I had a very little amount on it to begin with, and I bought Taya's CD with it before. But that's okay because Taya is more important then a stupid gray halter dress that my mommie can buy for me later ANYWAY =P
Anyway, besides that I jus jumped over to my Gijimo's blog and I saw Hush's blog was open. Very "not cutesty and dark" like Hushie would say. ^.^ It's called Da Black Ah leave us not even say anything that she has my man all over her blog but that's okay. It's Hush. Just like it's Shabby. I forgive because I love. *clears throat*
Ahhhhhh....let's see.....I talked to Sunnie today. ^.^ He was being a monkey telling me how he bothered KP all morning and didn't let him sleep so now Hye SUng is gonna kill him laterz LOL. U don't bother KP and get nothing from Hye Sung. So yeah....Sunnie bothered him all morning, wouldn't let him sleep, woke his ass up and dragged him out of bed, made him eat kept him up a little longer just to annoy him. ^^;;;; KP is a very sweet and patient boy, but when he's tired, he will basically drop anywhere he's standing. And he almost did a few times. Which is bad for Sunnie because if KP falls, gets hurt, Sunnie might as well run until he's back in NY cuz Hye Sung will cruify him. So he annoyed him by keeping him up all morning. And when everyone got home in the afternoon, he took him to the mall which was a hard thing for KP to do since he's been sleeping for the past few weeks. He was tired and sleepy and weak, so Sunnie had to make him walk a lot because KP was about ready to drop. Aww my poor oppa. Tee hee. Sunnie didn't get in trouble with Hye Sung because KP didn't tell on him. Awww.
I miss my oppas. =P
Anyway....*sigh* I'm going to Great Adventure tomorrow YAY! Come rain or shine....I WILL go damnit. I haven't been there in 2 years. *throws confetti* Cute guys, cute guys everywhere! Weeeee....*has camera ready* Bweeeeeeeee. >)
Okay that's enough of that. Time to go write because I'm behind =P Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 09:44 p.m. on Wednesday, August 22, 2001
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I remember naming a blog Automatic before that's why it's 2. Anyway...*sigh* I've been so bored lately. I can't believe it. And because I feel bored, i feel my writing has becoming boring itself. =P Blah. I wrote a chap of Petals Black tonight and though I was distracted and stuff I managed to write a crap chapter and still have time to spare. Plus I've been taking short cuts and sticking in interviews and stuff in between to make it longer. =P Blah I need to stop doing that. =P Oh let me post tonights chap before I 4get.
Anyway I listened to all of Ta's Polaris after I got off online before and I really really like it. I don't know what everyone is talking about saying it's full of nothing but jazz songs. He's got maybe like 2 or 3 really jazzy type songs but that's about it. One of my favorite songs, besides Polaris is Doobidub ^______^ It's the cutest song. He goes You're the one I love the most....doobidub Ahhh! *bounce* It's the cutest fuckin thing in the world.
Oh BLAH earlier this afternoon I was so NOT pleased to discovered Ta was smoking after they did that mollae camera thing on him. Here look for yourself.
I got these from The K-pop center forum so credit to them and I was so disapointed! UGH....I stopped smoking because...I dunno to me he always seemed like the kind of guy that would dissaprove of smoking himself...>.>;;;;*man was I ever wrong on that one* so I stopped smoking. And TADA here he is himself.....smoking. -.-*
Ooooooo....really trying to be Hyde's counterpart now aren't cha??
Anyway I guess I can't stress about it too much. So he smokes *shrugs* big deal. Sure it tarnishs his "innocent" image, but then again he is a grown man...doi. And he is free to do what he wants...though it is SO STUPID OF HIM. Idiot....I hope he realizes he's inhaling a type of rat poison, that stuff that keeps dead people preserved (I can't spell for shit), and a type of anti freeze. -.-* Oh yeah THAT'S attractive. Smoking sounds so gross when you know what you're inhaling don't it? Anyway besides my baby a completle and total idiot having his "duh Hye Sung" moment, let me show the part of him I love the most and NO, not his belly button. ^.^
Taya's Killer smile
Ah...that smile. It's one of the things I fell in love with about him. I got this through a link through Joolez *glomps* Thanks hunnie. And yeah....that smile is like better then Hyde's. ^______^ Yeah I said it. Because Taya is forever number one. ^.^
I still can't believe he smoked. UGH....oh well. Okay I'm over it for real this time. LOL U know Imma bring it up later. Anyway...*sigh* what was I gonna do...oh yeah...I was gonna...uh...yeah...^^;;;;
Imma go. LOL I have nothing else to blog about other then I MISS MY YAKUZA!!!!!!!!!!!! *sniffies* Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 10:41 p.m. on Tuesday, August 21, 2001
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Okay, today i was suppost to blog about how angry I was yesterday, and I will in a minute, but first I have to say:
I GOT MY KANG TA CD TODAY!!!!
And it's fucking beautiful.
I cried already, my eyes got blurry first, and then eventually, the tears slid down my cheeks and I couldn't see his face anymore. I didn't listen to the whole thing, I couldn't my heart kept aching during his ballads and I'm like OMG I can't listen to this when I'm driving, I'll cry and I won't be able to see anything. And I don't wanna fuck up my car because I was listening to my baby. Anyway, I handled the thing with kit gloves, and when I got it out of my mailbox I knew it was the CD. I was in such a frenzy to open it that when I took my surgical blade to the side of the box, I unknownly cut my palm. I didn't realize I cut my palm until later when I felt this stinging sensation. I was so careful to not bend or scrape the CD case, I went like -50 miles an hour to open it.
His pictures are so beautiful. I mean....when I was opening the CD-rom on my compy (downloading my new screensaver and wallpaper XD) I was looking through the pictures, listening to that song that made me cry, not even realizing that the stinging in my palm was still going on. He was beautiful and perfect, and....just....angelic. So fucking beautiful. I can't express it any other way. And my eyes are getting misty so let me just change moods.
Anyway, yesterday I got an IM from Sunnie and he was telling me how he was at the mall with KP, Chak Hae, and Chun Hae. And as always, Mikey. They walked next to each other as everyone went through the mall and Sunnie and Mikey aren't affectionate in public a lot. They'll whisper to each other and Sunnie will tease him a little, but it's not a lot. So Sunnie was whispering to him, this guy passed by and called them that word. I hate that word so much....it's like I just HATE homophobia because it's an act of ignorance, and I hate ignorance. Anyway, Sunnie called him out, they argued for a while, and then Sunnie was like, you're not even worth my time. And he goes to walk away and the stupid ignorant bastard goes, yeah walk away like every other fag. Sunnie turns around so quick and punches the guy. The guy goes does down, doesn't get back up. He got laid out. And Sunnie who's now almost legal, legal, ran out with the rest of them, leaving the guy who ran his mouth there. All this at a mall btw. It was pretty funny.
Sunnie was saying how it ruined his day, that he was insulted by that and I know I would be too. *sigh* I hate ignorant people. Anyway, besides that, I'll just go write for the day. Tym to get a move on for my next fic. ^.^ I'm almost done and ready to send it out. ^.^v
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 03:16 p.m. on Tuesday, August 21, 2001
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I'm listening to Glay's Rain. I love that song. Anyway let me post because I'm on limited time here =p
I miss my Maki-chan. I don't really have much to blog about, just stuff I wanna ramble about, and mostly sumthing that made me mad which was weird because Maki-chan gave me a link about this blog that was about homophobia and wouldn't you know it, I read it and today, Sunnie IMs me about a fight he got into with someone at the mall today that called him a fag. I was so pissed. I hate that word. Sunnie was pissed too, and he knew it wasn't one of those Korean born people, but a states born Korean who was obviously ignorant enough to say that to him as he passed by. What was so fucked up was that all Sunnie was doing was whispering something to Mikey as the guy passed them by. And for that he gets called a fag? What is wrong with people today. Then if he's a fag I must be to because of all them pics of me and BC and with Ghost where we're close. I hate that shit so much. It just...UGH I wish I had more time to blog about it. But I can't. I have to go. Tomorrow Imma blog about this in detail because it just makes me so mad. Blah...laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 12:14 a.m. on Tuesday, August 21, 2001
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Weeee.. I got to run my errans today. Wait, it wasn't fun. Well it sorta was. I got my film developed like I wanted and I hung out with Emanuel finally. And I wasted gas. >.> I went to Edison to buy Shinhwa 4 like I was suppost to, I went to both my Korean stores, sad to say it wasn't there. I was like T.T ugh...with traffic going in and out of that damn city needless to say I was annoyed. But anyway, I also went to buy my Maki-chan's book today and they didn't have it. Faboo. Now I have to go all the way to the mall to get it. Well not that I mind since I wanna see Christine and Ghost so badly. Anyway, it's all good. I only got 1/2 of what I wanted done. But it's okay cuz I got to spend time with Emanuel. I missed him so much too. ^.^ Anyway let me share my pics ^__^ since I finally freakin got them. Most of these are from my high school's graduation and when I went to NY. Okay here we go.
BC and Oogie.
This was them coming from NY on the train. We were all really tired from walking in the heat and doing it a lot.
Bong sleeping
This is my friend Bong (and yes that's his real name) They had barely gotten any sleep the night before and he fell asleep on his way to NY. He's so cute ^.^
Me with the Lotek Crew
This was during my old HS's graduation. I went to school with these people and I hold a lot of fond memories. ^.^
BC, Chuck and Oogie walking in NY
Action shot. LOL I was walking right beside Oogie when I took this.
Oogie, Chuck and Bong
Them on the train on the way to NY. They're such dorks.
My two cousins
Cute aren't they? But such annoying children -.-* these were the two responsible for waking me at 6 or 8 in the morning claming "I slept too much" >.> ugh I am I never having kids.
Me and Bong
My little cutie. Hehehe. This is us on our way back from NY. We were so tired as mentioned before. Heheh I woke him up for this pic because I had to finish my roll. ^^;;;
Me and Oogie
Us on our way back from NY. I look like my normal self there. ^.^v
I posted more pics over at our now open, H.O.T Yakuza Blog but those pics are just of the H.O.T Yakuza members anyway. ^.^ weeee. LOL Anyway before I 4get, because I was gonna do this in the beginning but I forgot, I wrote.
Wahhh....my back still hurts. I hate that. And now it hurts to walk when I get up out of chairs or whatever and my back was hurting when I woke up this morning. In fact that's what woke me up. I was trying to turn when the pain shot right through me. X.X Ow...I'm old. I think I fucked up my back badly. Damnit all to hell man. Anyway I talked to Linna and to Maki today...God I miss them. And Ghost too. *sigh* I can't wait till everyone comes back.
On the upside, I talked to my best friend and I'm going to Great Adventure this Thursday. (That's an amusment park for those that don't know) and I'm going with D and BC. Hm...notice my friends only have letters for names? LOL how odd. Anywayz better go. It's pretty late. *sigh* plus my back hurts. Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 12:47 a.m. on Monday, August 20, 2001
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Okay, today I was suppost to run some errans so I could mail out all the shit I was suppost to and mail my Maki-chan's bday present and Amy's. But get this, I woke up at 2, and an hour later, my boy Emanuel calls cuz I was suppost to go with him. But, my parents wheren't home and I just can't leave my house. So I figured my parents would come home within the hour or two. They didn't. Around 5 they finally got home and since Emanuel had band practice at 7 and there was no way we could get done in 2 hrs, we decided to go tomorrow. My parents bought me a new TV because my old one in my room is a piece of shit that never wants to hold the horizntal grip. I got all pissed off so my parents bought me a new one. The mofo piece of shit TV weighed a ton. I helped my dad carry it upstairs and I ended up hurting my back >.< ugh....
This little empress is too fragile.
Anyway I wrote today! YAY even though sitting in this chair hurts like a mofo. So anyway let me post that before I 4get again. =P
Weee I had a good day though...but my compy froze before and I was like UGH but, lucky for me I saved everything before I got kicked off. ^____^ Good for me. LOL Ooo And Aeris, who I looooooooooooove with all my heart gave me the most beautiful picture of Hyde to date ^_____^ I mean I love Hyde's face, but this pic isn't of his face. And it also lead me to discover sumthing new about Hyde.
And it's not as much cute as it is sekshii but I LOVE his back. It looks so smooth....like you can run your hand down it and feel nothing but silk skin. Oh and refresh the pic if it doesn't show up since virtue.nu is a bitch like that sometimes. Oh and keeping with my theme of beautiful people...
Nice pic....very beautiful. Yeeeah.....*runs from knife wielding Linna* Anyway, besides that, I have pics to share of Hyde and since Maki chan isn't here cuz she went to the beach for a week *sob* I'll share them with everyone else.
http://www.geocities.com/larukuenciel/agal299.jpg
Hyde licking his lips...again XD (copy and paste)
http://www.geocities.com/larukuenciel/agal157.jpg
Hyde licking his lip again...
http://www.geocities.com/st_larc/rrh8_98.jpg
Hyde in messy clothes. I love that messy "I-just-got-out-of-bed" look on Hyde ^___^
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Hyde with his mouth open. He looks like he's gasping or faking surprise anyway.
http://www.geocities.com/devil_larc/agal47.jpg
Hyde looking down his pants. XD Is he checking? I don't know...but I wanna see through his eyes for just that moment...XD
http://www.geocities.com/larukuenciel/agal282.jpg
Hyde with glasses on. Looking very young and adorable.
http://www.geocities.com/ikumi_laruku/all25.htm
Hyde's dopey smile. His smile is killer. XD
Weeeeeee sekshii. I saw my Ta's album jacket today...and it's fuckin beautiful. I can't go on to explain how fuckin beautiful....but...I could cry from his beauty. It's like looking at the face of a real saint. A real angel...God was in the best mood making him. Damn man....he's like a god that stepped from the heavens down to earth to grace us...he's so fucking beautiful. Perfection can't even begin to describe him. In fact, I'm going to start expaning my vocabulary just to describe him better. If there are such words that can do that.
Okay...my back hurts. And I'm done. Oh, and I'm past the 1/2 way point in my new gasoo fic! *waves little flag* Laterz~
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 12:37 a.m. on Sunday, August 19, 2001
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Okay over at the H.5.T people are idiots. I mean people are idiots where they go, but the stupidty rising in that forum is amazing. It's like, mind boggling. I don't know how so many stupid people can find their way there. I recently ran my mouth over there because I got pissed off this girl was saying all these pointless, not even caring she didn't like Ta's album, points about how bad his album is. I was like WTF? And you know that old saying, don't got nothing nice to say? (LOL That does so not apply to me) anyway, I went and ran my mouth only to be confronted with another sad fact, that people are completly incapable of thinking for themselves. So when one person said, Ta's album is bad, now this other person is like, "I heard Ta's album is bad" and blah blah blah. Whatever, it just shows the masses will follow whatever idiot opens their mouth first. It's sad really.
And continuing on my theme of stupid people, that girl a while back that pissed me off and I put her on full blast, had the nerve to email me, post at my forum and the, even after I ignored ALL THAT, she IMs me under a different name. I'm like....OMG WTF...why would anyone try to IM anyone after I clearly hate you? That doesn't make sense to me. Like I said, this world is full of incrediably stupid, stupid people. It's so sad...and scary since the majority of people just happen to be stupid. O.o wow this world is gonna crash and burn one day.
Anyway enough of that. I had a long battle with it. I wrote a little more YAY *waves little flag*
The Live House: The Regret- Part 5
*sigh* this is getting to be fun...and a task...but still fun. ^.^ And as a little bonus, I drew their first album cover XD >.< God this took forever to do....and then to scan because my scanner was being a bitch today. =P Anyway this is it. Petals Black 1st Album: Bloom I know I suck at drawing =P Refresh if no work. *sigh*
Anyway YAY we are now posting at the Yakuza blog...but as for it being open yet...I dunno....I'll see laterz. Anywayz, I'm at the 1/2 way point for my new fic! ^____^ I will start sending that out soon. YAY
Ooo let me tell u guys how my oppa Sunnie sounds like a petaphile. His boyfriend Mikey has gained some weight recently, and unlike the typical male that's like UGH U better loose weight, he's turned ON by it. He loves it. He was going on and on and on yesterday about how sexy it is on Mikeu and how he wants to go back to his orignal waist size, but he wants Mikey to stay "flubby and frumpy". Mikey's not a cow, but he's not as thin and defined as he use to be. I couldn't believe he was tuned on by his flub. Most guys aren't but Sunnie was loving it. Okay and this is what made him sound like a petophile, he said "Mikey looks fuckin sexy flubby. The flub makes him look innocent, it makes him look more vunerable, it makes him look younger."
O.o
I told him straight up, Sunnie you sound like a petophile. And he laughs. It was kinda scary for a moment. I was like whoa, good thing Mikey's not that much younger then him. He is about a 1 and a 1/2 younger but that's not really a lot. Anyway I still have more pics Ha ha ha ha and I'm not sharing. ^____^ My Ta *GLOMPS* MWhahahahaha.
Oh and one more thing. I wanna smack Sunnie. He saw Min Woo the other day, and get this, he didn't know who he was. -.-* I was like damnit oppa...I hate you. He was like I dunno any of them Shinhwa guys. =P Loser. Of course, leave it to Sunnie to see them. I told him if he ever saw Ta to take a pic for me. ^___^ he said he would. Awww...I love my oppa. ^^ laterz!!
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 12:02 a.m. on Saturday, August 18, 2001
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Okay, you know what's really weird? I was talking to Maki a little bit back and she was telling me how I'm killing Hyde for her like the way I killed Ta for BC. I was like....well yeah I understand cuz I know it's possible. I mean because of me BC just, couldn't care less what happens to Ta. And I know that's my fault and I know I can overkill anything with my inane habits of doing it over and over again...so like showing Hyde or seeing Hyde could prolly be over kill for her. But what's really weird is that, looking at Ta should have the same affect right? I think she's just getting sick of Hyde and not Ta is because Ta is in H.O.T and Hyde's just a J-rocker...which kinda plays to an unfair, taking sides thing. Because if you get sick of one, you should get sick of the other. You see them the same amount of times, I don't see how you could get sick of one and not the other. It's the same freakin thing.
All though from where I'm standing, I don't know how anyone could be sick of Ta OR Hyde. They're both fuckin sekshii as hell. XD
Anyway, besides that, I wrote a little more. ^_^
The Very First Live House- Part 4
I think this part of the fic gets kinda boring, but it gets better as it goes along...at least I'll try. Trust me, it's not as easy as it seems.
And I have been making a big fat glutton of myself. -.-* ugh eww I hate feeling full and fat. =P But that's okay. I'll feel better soon. ^_^v Ahh...Linna your blog is being a bitch. I miss you hun.
Oh, speaking of bitchs, like so many things come to mind about how I don't like females and yet I have a lot of female friends and I say its because they think like me, but when I re examine the thought, I see my friends are a lot more girly then first thought. I'm not gonna say no names, but there are moments where my people have these bouts of, what I call, "girlism" where they do stupid girl shit that gets on my nerves. I was talking to BC about the other night about how though they cool people, they can have stupid girl moments. And I'm not saying I'm any better because oh yeah, I'll have my little bitch moment where I do girly shit. But the thing is, that, I don't like to show it. I'm more prone to anger. Like me and BC were talkin bout how when Linna gets sad about Woo, we were like nah man, first inital thought that comes to mind: ANGER We wanna bitch slap anybody and anything that pisses us of. We don't get all sad and weepy, it's just not us. We also don't fight off every little teeny bopper (well I do) in a way because I don't care who sweats my man, you can sweat him all you like, don't mean ur gonna get him. And we've been through this before when people say, "what makes you think you're any better?" and the answer is simple and plain as day....
I'm a lot more bolder.
I won't fuck around. When it comes to Ta, I will go toe to toe with ANYONE. I will play dirty, I got back, aces up my sleeve, tricks and magic shows to do what I gotta do. If I make a enemy out of a friend, then so be it. I don't give a FUCK. I could give a FLYING one...I really don't. Which is why I try really hard not to make friends with other Ta fans, because sometimes they bother me, and I don't say anything because I try not to be petty and small, but it's like in my nature to get all pissy first thing. I know that's bad when you'll shaft friends for a guy but you know what, I only got about 2 real, flesh and blood friends I see and talk to on a everyday basis, I'm not too worried about loosing an online buddy. And if I make enemy, take a ticket and stand in line.
Anyway, back to the girly thing, little girl shit bothers me. I really really hate it. It's so annoying when you try to act hard when you're crushed on the insides. BC knows who I'm talkin bout, and I jus hate that. If you're a girl, be a girl, don't try to say yeah yeah, I'm down, then cry when something happens. Cuz then thas jus the female in ya.
Another thing BC an me talked about, them foogly bitches famous people be after. Like Minu's 1st love, Junie and Hyukie's first love and of course, Hyde's wife. They all a bunch of foogly heffiers and (excluding Hyde's wife) they all didn't look too happy to see them. In that love show crap whatever, none of them stank hoes looked happy to see them, plus they were sum OOGLY moo cows man. I know Minu, Junie and Hyukie were glad they passed them chicks up. Geez. And maybe they were cute little kids I don't know, but not now bro. And of course, BC's oh so famous line (now including Hyde's wife)
"They must either be really nice, or give GOOD head."
Logical enough for me. Cuz man when I saw Junie's ex girlfriend...oooo man she hurt my feelings. She was wack as hell. Me and BC were like....she's prolly nice...or jus gives some of the dopest head Hee Jun ever got cuz that chick is BUSTED. She's HURT. And that's prolly true for Hyde's wife too. Damn, the woman must be a Hoover then cuz...she's oogly. But we already went through this.
*sigh* Oh wow....I've been ranting a lot today. And my eyes hurt >.< owie. They sorta burned before but now I'm chillen. Okay and before I go, I'll share a beautiful Hyde pic so yes, you too can get sick and tired of seeing him LOL:
http://www.geocities.com/st_larc/datah20_2.jpg
Hyde's Baby soft skin (copy and paste)
And that's all for now. *yawn* Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 09:33 p.m. on Thursday, August 16, 2001
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Okay I did stuff today, so now I have to share. One a very embarassing situation. Okay I woke up at 7 in the morning, after sleeping at 5 in the morning. I wasn't surprisingly tired. I had to go to court with my mom. So as I sat there, trying to not die of bordeum I pulled out my CD case full of my Korean CD's and my 2 J-rock CDs and Nsync's Celebrity. I listened to that first. Then I went to pull out Aucifer, and I opened the case and TADA empty. -.-* I was so mad at myself for bringing an empty CD case. So I listened to Larc instead. Then by then my mom was ready to go, so we left.
And this is the embarassing part. On our way out of the parking garage, I realized the ticket we got on the way in was a valadated ticket so after spending a few hours there, we had to pay. We pull up to the booth, where from far away, I see this guy who looked kinda cute. I was like hey there...and I got hyped. So once we pulled up, I leaned down a little so I could get a better look at him. Once I made eye contact with him, I smiled and WOOO He smiled back! I got all hyped up and as he took my mom's 10$ to give her change, my mom turned to me and was like, look at him flirting. Of course I was all hyped up and was like heeeeeyyy this guy is smiling at me!! ^___^ so when he turned to give my mom back her change he smiles again, and I'm still smiling at him. And suddenly he goes, "Hey is that Lez?" I went like this: O.o how does he know me...and then I recognized his voice. He was this guy who's younger then me that I went to high school with. I had a crush on him for a hot second but gave up once I found out he was all high and holy with the religion.
I was SOOOOOOO EMBARASSED!! I'm sitting here, smiling at this idiot like he's cute, when I realized who he was I was like OMG....I don't even like this guy because not only is he a religious nut, but he's also a jerk. I had a few scuffles with him that caused me not to talk to him for a year. I was like OMG...>.<;;;;;;;; my face got all hot and my mom was saying how he was flirting...I was like >.>;;;; no he's not....he just recognized me first....-.-
Anyway, earlier, I started watching one of my all time fav movies, Immortal Beloved. It's one of my many favs, besides Interview. Immortal Beloved is the story of one of the all time best composers, Beethoven. I love him, but Mozart is a personal fav above all, mostly because he was a prodigy, playing his first concert at the age of nine. He died around the age of 23-30 because he drank absthine like a mofo. But he was a genius. Anyway, so is Beethoven and this movie was sooo good. It was like, after he died, that his secretary was trying to find out who his immortal beloved was since he found a letter addressed to her after his death. You do find out who it is at the end, and it's so sad. Like you get to hear some of the letter he wrote to her and it's just so touching...it's like...I can hear these words being spoken to my Ta, because it's so heartfelt and real. I love that movie.
Anyway, I was going through Kara's blog X.X making sure she stops cruifixing me with my words (LOL jus kiddin Kara ^^;;;) and I saw this things she did cuz she couldn't sleep. And I'm like cool I wanna do that too, cuz I'm not creative like that. ^^v:
^i never wear flat shoes. At least I never use to. I stopped wearing 5+ inch platforms when I fucked up my foot.
I have a slutty wardrobe. I say this because majority of my shirts are v-neck to sport my cleveage, my short skirts dont go past my finger tips, my long skirts have slits up to my thighs on both sides, and a lot of my "tanktops" are really lingere I sport.
The only video games I was ever good at where Bust-a-Groove 1 and Tekken 3 but I lost practice at Tekken so now I suck.
I am NOT a wannabe Korean/Japanese/Asian. Most people say that to me when they see my stuff and I really hate it. I'm not proud, but I know what I am.Though most of my music collection is from Korean CDs and now my new collection of J-rock CDs
I am really open-minded. I'm sometimes too open-minded and I will talk about anything. I have been so desensitised to everything and anything anyone can say, it'll prolly just roll off me. My favorite topics to talk about: sex, H.O.T, and things to do to H.O.T
I am a virgin hard to believe huh? But I'm too experianced. I might as well not be.
My fetish: Hearing/writing/reading/seeing gay sex. There's something about knowing that two pretty boys fuck each other. It's a big turn on for me.
I write gay fiction sometimes it's based off a true story.
I THINK like a guy. 65% of my thoughts are the same things, guys think.
I'm hetrosexual but damned if I don't think like a gay male.
I once licked my ex boyfriend's body from his belly button to his collar bones. He made delicious sounds.
I once drank three bottles of wine with my mother.
I met my first boyfriend in the 4th grade. He broke up with me after a month because he said I was ugly. To this day, being called ugly, brings me to tears.
I never get into catfights. I swing like a guy. But it's been a while since I fought with other then my mouth.
I can't sleep without my pink and white baby blanket. I'm that spoiled and treated like a child.
My wishlist: It varies, but at this moment, Ahn Chil Hyun, his propsal, and his child in my womb.
I draw in penicl because I suck at everything else. But I once drew a 12x24 portrait of Sunnie in charcole, conte crayon, ivory pencil, and regualr pencil for my art class. I was never graded
I wear Armani constantly. My clothes reak of it.
I once burned a hole in my new Aeropastel gray fleece on the sleeve when having a ciggeratte I shouldn't have been having. It made me quit smoking...again.
I once wrote down my crushes name in a small white book and carried it with me. I filled the book with his name starting from his first name to his middle name to his last name on each page until it was filled. I later threw the book out.
I once crash dieted meaning I gave up eating. It effected me permantly, allowing me to only eat small portions of food. I feel full easily and quickly.
I listen to classical music on the regular. In my CD case you'll find Mozart, Beethoven, and other classical composers and the soundtrack to Total Eclipse, Interview with a Vampire, and Immortal Beloved. In the front of the case, My H.O.T CDs
I can do the entire dance to Beet but I can't understand a word Hyukie says in Yul Mah Cha. I can sing all of Sayonara, but I can't understand Teru's english in Rain.
My Princess Bugaboo (my friend Mary) once asked me to give her a hicky I declined, offering to do it later.
I would not be upset at all if Ta cheated on me with Hee Jun. In fact I'd be all good with it.
I recognize that Hee Jun got further with Ta then I have. Then most people have....
I am well aware of my obession with Kang Ta in fact I sport it proud and loud.
I'm two-faced to some people.
I am a bad driver I once almost hit a dumpster behind me and it was in plain view.
I made out with a close guy friend of mine just for the hell of it.
I guess that's about it. I don't know....sometimes I feel I'm too open. Hahahah XD
BC called me a little while ago, asking to do her a favor. Once I said sure, she said "Thank you baby". Which to me, made my heart flutter because BC is rarely sweet/kind to me. So I appericate it because it doesn't happen often.
*sigh* I better get to work. ^.^ laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 03:10 p.m. on Thursday, August 16, 2001
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I didn't do crap today. I'm getting bored and I didn't get a chance to write because everyone wanted me in chats all day. I was like...errr okay because I love you. Well not the one I was in this afternoon. I was like...well okay because you asked. The one tonight was better because I got to talk to SR unni, Janie, Maki, and Linna all at once. We talked about Ta XD well mostly his album since it already premiered in Korea. T.T I need to be in Korea. And speaking of which, today (in Korean Time) It's Sunnie's Bday!!! he's 20 today. Which means he's almost completly legal. Good thing Mikey already is otherwise we'd have some problems. LOL I wrote him a nice long email telling him how I appericated his friendship and I loved him and missed him. And a email card. ^_^ I miss my Sunnie oppa.
Let's see...OH I saw the MV for Neo-Universe. XD Ah Hyde is a sekshii bitch. Never getting over that sekshiiness. Ooo and speaking of sekshiiness, thankies to mah lovely daughter Janie, I got new Ta pics. ^____^
KETTOBASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm saying that to all ya. No touchies.
Ooo thas right, I'm not sharing. LOL Nah seriously, I'm not going to. They'll be posted up eventually sumwhere else, but for the time being, Imma jus enjoy them all for myself. ^.^ Mean aren't I?
Oooo before I 4get, let me post more of Petals Black hehehe that way Lita can have more to read when she comes back ^_^
Tomorrow I might have the album cover done for the 1st album because I'm drawing that out. *yawn* I miss my Ghost and now Wrath is going bye bye for almost 2 weeks...*sigh* this sucks. =P bah. Oh wellz. Laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:26 p.m. on Wednesday, August 15, 2001
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lez, OMG YOU BOUGHT THE CD!!!!!!! XD hahaha i'll quote you baby!
"and I was very upset to find a picture that he...actually...looked...somewhat nice in....X.X OMG I'm so tramitized....I can't believe I like this pic...God.." [Lez] Hmmm.. let me translate? OMG I CANT BELIEVE I WANT HOONIEZ ASS TOO!!! I HAVE TO DENY IT GODDAMMIT!!! XP heheh pretty close eh? XD
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I DONT THINK SO. SO FAR FROM IT. OMG....Kara....don't make me take back my half assed compliment. No way in HELL, even if it froze over, the skies turned green, the oceans dried up, Ta got ugly like Hyde's fugly wife, and I became a nice person, 5th door 9th fucking gate, will I ever, ever, EVER want THAT BOI. God seeing him is like ACID....T.T
And this, ladies and gentlemen, is why I never compliment THAT BOI.
Ew.....that was just....gross.....ew...*shutter* thas like me wanting....I dunno....I can't think of anyone more repulsive and skin crawling then him >.<
Oh ew...I have that nasty taste in my mouth...@.@
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:51 p.m. on Tuesday, August 14, 2001
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Okay last night, as usual we were on the phone and BC was telling me about something...and we got on the subject of like I guess the Flinstones and how Fred Flinstone would use a mammoth to take a shower. Then BC goes, that's nasty cuz in real life, you wouldn't get clean hot or cold, or luke warm water, you'd get mammoth snot. LOL So I started laughing so hard, cuz then she goes on to explain like what if the mammoth had a cold and he sneezed all over you, so not only would the shower be over in 2 seconds but you'd get even more mammoth snot all over you. LOL It was the funniest yet grossest thing we talked about. I couldn't stop laughng for like....10 minutes. It was the funniest thing in the world for me. LOL I'm so weird.
Anyway besides that, let me post more of Petals Black cuz I have readers! LOL I'm weird I know. I wasn't sure if anything I'm doing in this fic is right cuz I'm like....not too knowledgable on J-rock stuff...so I'm like gonna screw up somewhere. Let's just all remember people, it's FICTION. LOL
Meeting Kosu Catboy Yukihiro- Part 2
Anyway what else...oh yeah speakin of J-rock, I want Hyde's barbwire necklace necklace. I'm setting off a world search to find it. So like....if anyone knows where I can get one, or can get me one, be a doll and let me know okay? Cuz I really REALLY want one.
A pic of it: http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Courtyard/2112/la35.jpg
Anyway I'm once again drinking my dope Orange juice. Bweeeeeeee MWHAHAHHA it's the greatest. I'm weird when it comes to my orange juice. Tee hee. And what else was I gonna say...oh yeah Christine came back YAY I missed her lots. She was in Florida. Bweeeeeeeeeeeee anyway now shes back. And I still miss my Ghost. *sigh* Hopefully I'll get to see her Thursday. I miss my Ghoooooooooooooost. LOL
Anyway I better go write some more. ^_^v laterz.
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 09:50 p.m. on Tuesday, August 14, 2001
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Weeeeeee. I got a new layout. ^_^ As always an explaination will be done. Okay, so if anyone ever heard of Nine inch nail's song called Closer, the lyrics are like....freaky XD The pictures and everything of my Ta are him looking like he's in the very throws of passions/ecastacy. WEEEEEEE so hence, the new layout is called Closer. ^_^
I'm hyped. Weeeee okay well...I have to upload the next chap of Petals Black if anyone besides Maki, Linna and BC are reading it...-.-* bah. Anyway, yesterday I got Aucifer's CD Weeeeeeeeeeee I was hyped beyond belief cuz I was like waiting for it. ^_^ and I also got new clothes. XD I got all this new clothes recently and I'm not complaining. Tee hee. But today I got THAT BOI's CD. -.-* yes I sed I would break down and buy it and I did....don't believe me? Don't think I the biggest THAT BOI hater, that can't even SAY his name or type it because it's like acid in my mouth and on my fingers, I who loath him so much I would weep tears of blood if he ever got any closer then Korea to me can't buy his CD? Welll HA...I did. -.-* Here's My proof -.- I'm not entirly proud of my purchase...I haven't even listened to it...and plus, I was looking through the CD jacket which HURT MY EYES, and I was very upset to find a picture that he...actually...looked...somewhat nice in....X.X OMG I'm so tramitized....I can't believe I like this pic...God...Kara and Joolez are gonna have a field day with this....X.X I'm so ashamed...I can't believe I own his freakin CD and I like one of his pics...it's not my fault he takes decent B&W pics.....I said that to Kara before...*and she cruified me with my words* but now....I actually...have it. *SOB*
*falls to floor*
*SOB*
Oh God...no more. Espically since when I was away for the weekend I bought Nsync's Celebrity and I liked it. =.= but one think I noticed after listening to it a few times in a row, all the songs sound the same. But hey it's Nsync I'm not expecting much. *sigh* What is wrong with me! *cough* anyway now that I'm tramatized beyond all repair T.T I got a letter from my Gijimo *bounce* I love getting letters from her. I have to go shopping this weekend. I gotta buy packaging shit and the last bit of my Maki chan's bday present, and then send out both presents that I'm far behind on T.T and then still buy BC's present...OMG I'm so late on that. But hey, better late then never right? ^^;;; lucky for me Sunnie's in Korea so MWHAHAH tuff luck for him no present for you Sunnie!! Besides...i can never compete with Mikey's present...>.>;;; I'm saying though, what do you get your gay friend, who always wants to get laid? A hotel room..LOL or maybe lube...condoms? Flavored body gel? A family sized can of whip cream? *shrugs* I have no idea. So I rather not get him anything. Last year I called him for a change, and we talked, I wished him a happy birthday, asked him his plans and thas about it. I couldn't see him that year. =P or this year...bah. Imma write him a nice long email and send him a card. ^_^ love love mah Sunnie.
Weeeee ooo Look more Hyde XD Hyde with Dark hair and then Hyde with blonde hair. He looks so young ^_^ awww kawaii. *pinchy Hyde* hehehehe anyway I really want his necklace...X.X I've gotten stuck in my head that I want to get his barb wire necklace...I'm weird. Let's see what else....um...well I guess that's about it. Except I love my Maki-chan!! *GLOMP* I looove her. hhehehe laterz~
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 03:06 p.m. on Tuesday, August 14, 2001
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OKAY. Im' finally posting. I know...everyone has been wondering about this for a while ...and before I post ANYTHING let me just give a few warnings.
WARNING:
This isNOT repeat NOT a gasoo fic. Don't read it expecting to find Shinhwa, 1tym or H.O.T cuz they aint in it.
This is an original story. Unlike 36 Moons there WILL be major, MAJOR Boy's love, boy x boy, like boys fuckin other boys. Not down? Dont read.
There will be lots of swearing, racial slang, use of drugs and drinking and of course lots and lots of SEX between males and females and males and males.
I will use Japanese terms in here. I'll try to define them as best as I can like before in 36 Moons
Okay, thast all the warnings for now. Now let me run a few little things by everyone reading this story. I put a littl emore into the art work this tym (still sucks by my standards but hey...I'm a writer not an artist) The P.O.V's (Point Of Views) will bounce around without warning, so try not to get confused. Plus, there will be articles, newspaper clipings, interviews and whatever (ALL FAKE) interjected into hte story in between parts so again be aware and dont loose yourself. ^.^
Also, unlike 36 Moons this is a J-rock sotry (I like them enuff, might as well make up my own freakin badn for it) so dont expect bang bang bang shoot em up again. Cuz it aint happeneing. So also beware fo pretty boys in make up and tummy bearing shirts! ^_^ You guys heard of Kaiken Phrase? This is sorta my take on it...so no i'm not biting off the story...jus doing sumthin dimilar to it, but I'm trying to avoid doing anything like the anime/manga. So please dont point it out to me that it's "already been done"
One more thing, unlike in 36 Moonswhere it was just from one point of view the whole time and he introduced all the people, there is none of that here. So I'll do it for you ^^ Let's start with the band ^.^
Petals Black is...
Sumagi Seiichiro
Age (when Petals Black is 1st put together): 18
Eyes: light brown
Hair:Platinum blonde with two black tips in the front
Position in Petals Black: Vocals
Background: Seiichiro, before he joins Petals Black is a normal high school student just trying to graduate. He had an unknown singing talent when he met the guitarist later on. The two became friends and eventually something more...
Miyazaki Kanashii
Age:23
Eyes: Dark brown
Hair: black with colored streaks in it. (when Petals Black opens, they'r epink at the time)
Position in Petals Black: Guitarist
Background: His past develops as the story goes on. But he was responsible for Seiichiro finding his voice. He's a dreamer, and doesnt care about shocking anyone as long as he's happy. He's also a very sexual person. Something deep happens with him and Seiichiro, but that is also developed further on.
Setsuna Hirokei
Age: 23
Eyes: brown
Hair: Short and black with blue streaks
Background: Hirokei was in another band before joining Petals Black. He didn't like the idea of a new band due to past problems with the first one, but eventually follwed with it. He's very too himself, and appears cold. He's also not close with his family at all.
Kosu "Catboy" Yukihiro
Age: 17
Eyes: Hazel
Hair:Platinum blonde with streaks of darker blondes
Positionin Petals Black: Drummer
Background: Like Seiichiro, Yukihiro was also a high school student at the time. He was in another band before called The Moon's Child, but that fell apart quickly. His friendship with the other members quickly boosted his ability to play better and he followd his dreams and ambitions all the way through, even though it ultimatly cost him his family. His obsession with cats has given him the nickname Catboy, which everyone affectionatly calls him since he allso wears false cat ears at all times. As the baby of the band, he's given a few more braeks when he needs them. His best friend was also their first fan.
*whew* and FINALLY the fic itself...
Enjoy!!!!!!! LOL ...oi...I'm tired. That was a lot...*falls into Ta's arms*
One Luv~*
taya brought her Closer... @ 11:12pm on Sunday, August 12th
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